Childhoods revisted :)

(HECK I know I am giving infinite publicity to the movie.. WHO CARES :P)So I FINALLY saw it today...after some 3 consecutive futile attempts at seeing Taare Zameen Par.. we finally did manage to see it courtsey Riddhima today.. and WOW.. all I can say is that it was completely worth the wait!Needless to say.. most of us girls were in tears :P :P.. god.. I am SO pathetic, I cry at the parts where like uhmm absolutely NO ONE sheds a tear...!?!? I mean uhm hello.. I was crying in Ta Ra Rum Pum, just coz Saif Ali Khan was driving his cocker spaniel out of his house and I started missing Mocha.. yes... the story did not touch me one wee bit.. but the dog just had to do it..!!And today.. I was ok for most of the 1st half... and then that song starts.. that one about mothers... and WOAH....my faucet of tears just REFUSES to stop, it was like this whole thing about Oh-my-god-i-so-love-my-mom-but-dont-appreciate-her-enough instances just flashing before me eyes..I might tend to dramatise things a BIT :P ;).. but seriously, there are somethings that just do make you introspect so much.. some pictures of my childhood, my first day of kindergarten with my standing right next to me, mum and dad beaming proudly when i won some award uhmmm In class I(hah..THOSE were the days :P )..and the lyrics of that song was just amazing.. if you ask me(ok,I know noone is...but what the heck..MY BLOG remember ;))songs like these are like masterpieces.. so few, but yet so wonderful.. like that song "Lukachippi" from RDB.. The lyrics just sears right through the heart.. anyways.. gettting back to Taare..=)...That kid was just AMAZING.. seriously.. I could totally identify with that whole lower lip trembling and the bawling beginning part..(uhmm wait.. most whiny kids would :P)...the range of emotions in the movie was just fantastic.. just about everytime the kids or Aamirs eyes starting shining with tears, rest assured your eyes are going to be welling with some of em too :P ..from the kids stubborness, retaliations,depression and finally his triumphs.. we all could relate to it so strangely well..the situations, the parental pressure and expectations,the impatient teachers,the inevitable evil bullying(woah... I remember facing a LOT of THAT when I was small.. some kids I remember, could give hard core criminals and blackmailers a run for their money...! I can never forget the trauma of having to do the homework of a kid EVERYSINGLE day,just coz that Idiot was the tiffin monitor.. and I was uhmmm lets just say. a PICKY EATER :P)... Most intresting it was to see Varun.. though he might unconvincingly claimed he wasnt crying..it was just too touching when he said he was going to make sure his dad saw the movie.. since he had always been skeptical about the whole dyslexia thing with him.. but,it wasnt just the story of a dyslexic child, it was the story of a childhood most of could relate to having faced at some point or the other..sure, their were those slight gliches in the movies.. some of those too good to be true parts.. however the way the movie dealt with dyslexia was just amazing.. but what I found most touching was the way they spoke about the parents,teachers who are constantly, ceaselessly driving their children to excel in their studies, irrespective of the child's indidvidual talents, capabilities or even limitations.Let alone the difficulties for a dyslexic child, the world has become so fiercely competitive...not just the parents, we oursleves too.. admittedly... one of the main things that drives us to do better IS competition.. but to what extent?Study, excel in academics and THEN WHAT?What about the talents I might have? The hobbies I want to pursue..?Sure, I'm a little frazzle brained now, so I do know that there are a LOT of loopholes in what I am saying. But more importantly, what I am trying to point out is that there must be such a vast, huge expanse of talent there that all of us are wasting.. just because when we prioritise, it is understandably studies that take the forefront in comparison to anything and everything else..(uh apart from good ol fun that is ;) ) ...but even around me..I see so many people... Bhavna with her amazing artistic skills, Kavya with her writing, Karishma with her singing.. so many of us, who refuse to make the most of the gifts Gods bestows on us.. because of maybe low self esteem, that casual almost lazy attitude we tend to adopt towards our talents and mostly because of those endless strereotypes that insist notwithstanding any talent we might, how much ever evident and extraordinary, we do our best , our very best in academics..even if it means eventually taking a road we do not enjoy travelling on.. doing something we dont really have our heart in..I might seem naive, almost silly.. but yet, I am still nagged by this thought.. how much could it reallly hurt... to try your hand.. and I dont mean joining some summer classes just coz your parents forced you to.. but really seriously take up something you truly ENJOY doing and taking up the courage to really give it your all...hmmm just a passing thought.. that I cant seem to put adequately enough in words..

Oh well.. I simply CANNOT make this entry without mentioning Red's absolutely DELICIOUS cake...Oh my god.. the minute I put it into my mouth, I was sure I had died and gone to chocolate heaven or something.. Woah..I mean hello.. rich,sinful chocolate mousse with LOTS of raisins and a base of chocolate cake.. which sane person WOULDNT be transported to the heights of ecstacy :P :P

2 days to New Years, and I STILL am not sure about what I am doing for new years.. god... I am so pathetic :P have I mentioned that before?

Anyways, better end it right here,right now (woaahh..CORNYYYYYYY!) before my dad kills me for his much favoured for online bridge..(search me :P)

Just being me..

*Nikho* =)

All of that... and more :P

Yeppp.. and so I'm back... back to bore you with .... oh wait... why am I even bothering here..?!? Been there, done that... now off with it :P
O.O my last entry was.. umm kinda .. uh old..!?!!? And a lot has transpired since then... heck I became 16...! :D :D ..And wad it the best sweet 16 a girl could ask for or what..!?!!?!?I brought my birthday in with the people I really love, oh and who went to GREAT extents to make this day special :D :D, with loooots of cake(maybe calories too :P who cares,a birthday comes just once a year;)),lots of HUGZ,with surprise.. comeon.. i would have been really disappointed if there were none on my 16th!,and ooodles of yappy, sappy sappy moments ... it doesnt hurt that I got gifted an ipod either ;) and a ring too, and FRIENDS season finale episodes....hah.. this is where I start doing a mini jig around the computer prompting my poor mum to think her daughter has FINALLY lost it :P

Anyways... am pretty much content with my life right now.. who wouldnt be, holidays, fever so you can be given the royal treatment and loadsss of good books to read(ahem, theres that tiny cloud of the unit tests, but that can be "dealt"*sinister laugh* with later :P) o.O and I read ..............*drumroll*"THE GODFATHER"... OHMG... That Book is, I quote "the book of all time".. It almost made me wish I was born in a mafia family.. (hah.. and how would THAT be) .. the description, that gang war... the complexity of the characters.. and those ENDLESS layers the book runs through.. I literally devoured it. Its so rare that you find a book like this one.. the kind I wouldnt mind updating my orkut profile for, just so that I could add in my list of favourite books :P

Lifes pretty much monotonous otherwise, its strange... but its like I have to stop and think a kazillion times while writing all this.. maybe I've just lost the flair ... sigh... that sure does wonders for my self esteem.

The new years is just 3 days away, and I have not the faintest idea about what I want to do. Oh well, staying at home and watching those programs and christmasy/new years kinds movie on the television doesnt seem such a bad bet either... o.O cant believe I just said that, maybe the fever just got to my head or something :P
And now it finally happened.. yesterday I'm on the phone when Aashay suddenly went like "oh ya,that Bezanir Bhutto got assasinated...." and I shrieked "WHAAAAAAAA?!!?" to top it off,the stupid hathway connection had to start acting up then. I don't know why, but it really was a shock.. I know she was exiled from her country on corruption charges and all of that...maybe she wasn't such a great person either... but its still so strange, I dont think I can really explain why.. but the assasination in particular left a nasty taste in the mouth.

Somethings just do... like everytime I read about some new fatwa that they've issued against Sania Mirza... woah that irritates me..! ok, makes my blood boil more like it!
Here we are, in the 21st cenutury.... seemingly advanced, and there re still those sections in the society that are willing to threaten someone who is admittedly bring fame and glory (comeon, frankly... not that I have any personal liking for her,she has had her sure share of hits.. apart from the humongous publicity generated around tennis thanks to her) for what...!?!? Oh right,that would be wearing a tennis skirt that is too short... there are still those sadits from VHP who went around on CHRISTMAS EVE, destryoing churches in Orrissa and killing people. All of this just makes me despise the whole concept of religions sometimes. The tolerance level in all of us for other human beings, their faith, religion, beliefs or even thoughts is so staggeringly low. Its just so sad, that someone can actually stall the success of an individual because they refuse to let go of their antiquated notions wherein the lady shouldnt be ought there in the first place.Equally sad is the fact that those sadists, those extremists to the core who claim to be "protecting the sanctity of religion" are willing to comprimise on the very sanctity of humanity. I mean how sad and sick minded could be those people, who are willing to spread such ill will on a day like Christmas.. when (at least thats what I.. in my idealistic self feel) even the coldest of hearts seem to thaw with those merry carols,decoarated churches, and that general air of festivity all around. My own grandmother proudly tells me that she gave her sons the freedom to marry anyone, except a Muslim... is that what we've been reduced to.. labelling people,their behaviour,character,efficiency on the basis of the god they pray to? The faith they believe in?At times like these, the world seems a scary place to live in... but you go with the flow all the same. The most I can do is nonsensically rant about it, and then go on living my life, while such people live theirs..maybe its not as abnormal as I believe it to be,but to me the most freaky thing is when someone tells me.. well ya.. Narendra modi dint reeaally do anything wrong with those mass killings in Gujarat.. "they" deserved it...

Oh well.. I can go on about this, but I'd rather stop.. its a pretty distressing thing to think or write about..!
A little confused and scatterbrained,

*Nikho* =)

P.S : Thanks so much rituraj for those topics, I wud have totally used them had I not been abjectly mortified t the fact that I couldnt think of anything to write and hence have been shamelessly ignoring my blog :D .. I'm patenting those now though :D

Tired.. and how!!?!!?

STATUTARY NOTE: In case you're looking for something good to read.. do yourself and me a favour.. pass this entry.. I dont even know why I posted it in the first place!

God... After that sudden spurt of writing that took me over. I am suddenly at a loss on what to write..!

I told you Rituraj thats going to happen... didn't I ?!?!?! Huh, Huh?!!??! Well.. Can I just say I TOLD YOU SO :P :P
Lifes hectic these days.....No I mean really,really hectic..uhmm ok barring my days at school :P a majority of which is spent sleeping on my desk... hehe

Most of my days though.. seem to be spent in making decisions.. .. small ones, big ones, tough ones.. sigh and it really doesnt seem to end..

But I miss being free.. and having time to waste.. go out.. do stuff... and that sort of thing..Nahh.. not that I dont like my classes.. anyones whose spoken to me for even 5 mins would know that :P

But its just that I miss having my friends around me.. being able to go for outings...to spend time with them...

A majority of my times these days seems to be spent either worrying about the impending edding,incidentally for which I havent bought a single thing... My MOMS shopping more than me...hello!!!!! Or thinking about class, and how I dont want to miss it..

strange isnt it.. when I had nothing to do ... i REALLY had nothing to do.. and now that one thing starts.. KABOOM its an explosion of sorts!!!
If I want to go for my brothers wedding(uhmmm..that would be an obvious..YES?!!?!?) I miss the club day(yeah.. i know I'm petty , so sue me:P),the 10 k run... and and and TWO CLASSES!!!!! shrieeek!!
But its just not that... I just feel so alienated.. from everyone I love and care about... its weird not having someone or the other calling me up every 5 minutes and telling me about some new triumph..however small..some trouble.. or even just how their day went....anything..!! Heck..forget about other people sharing their sorrows with me(for want of a better word.. I am kinda delirous right now :P ) .. I dont have anyone to share my day with anymore..!
This is a sort of first for me.. just being so alone, unwanted.. argh you get the point..Yea I know I probably sound like a self obsessed, narcisstic and whiny freak... but then, thats what its my blog for, aint it :P :P :P
Ouch.. I sound like a... umm.. meanie.. (I am kinda trying not swear here... just in case it escapes your notice.. :-/)

Another wedding, on the 2nd... and of my closest brothers.. and I'm not attending it coz I have my winter funk... Good god.. I sound like a selfish wacked out freak even to myself....would dying with guilt be an exaggeration.. uhmm I guess so.. but trust me... I am CLOSE to it.. ohh and when I try to mention this to my dad .. (ya.. ummm now I'm resorting to making my parents my agony aunts AND my punching bags)... he voices his main concern.. that would be.. sudden sprouting of those million pimples yet again on my face, and how I am going to look all ugly with them..my pimples...I kid you not.. and thats so toally in my hands..NOT.As if I already dont know how bad my face has been looking with them.. my so called friends...never spare any opportunity to inform me about that, so dad..uhmm just get in the queue won't you..

There I go again..

Maybe Lifes good.. maybe I Just cant see it.. but it just feels like my mind is determined to be depressed right now..and trust me.. that is NOT a good state to be in..

tata for now.. please don't kill me after and IF (holy lord..NO!) you read this post.. and don't worry I aint sucidal :P

Nikho...

The fast (that is SO me...NOT) and the FURIOUS!

God.. I'm such such a hypocrite.. I know I never,ever return calls, I don't go for sleepovers even my friend practically begs me coz I dont feel like it.. but whew am I furious, now that I've been stood up..!!O.o I'm in rage, boy o boy I'm boiling!



I just hate it when people take me for granted.. yeah, change plans at the drop of a hat, and I am supposed to be totally fine with it. O.o



Maybe its finally time to execute my wild fantasy of going all alone to a mall and freaking out there... maybee I'll even book a ticket and watch a movie all by myslef there..maybe..!



Oh and then I get the line "good keep fighting only, when do we not fight" Oooooohh..AUDACITY! Its 1 pm on childrens day and I am sitting at home ranting and raving like a mad woman on my blog! Go Figure!



I should have seen this coming though.. it seems to me when I am particularly happy someday, it is inevitabely destined that I my mood should be royally,fantastically screwed up the next.



Woah.. I can practically feel the heat on my cheeks.



Murder anyone?



Strange.. how we just tend to take people so much for granted..! The last few days, I've been doing a lot of catching up with my pals in the middle of the night (at the expense of my poor mum's fury and dad's mobile bill :P) and I suddenly realised how much I was missing out on their lives and mine!



How does it inevitabely happen... that when you are so close to one friend, one person, you just sidetrack the rest..!!? ( ok, ok.. happens just with me...baah!)



I wish I wasn't so bad at maintaining friendships though... coz I really have a bunch of truly amazing people to thank for.. particularly when they calm me down in moods like this... if only with their non commital hmm's (LOL!)


(I just felt like putting that.. no significance whatsoever :P Family Circus RULES!)

Kavya: Ok.. I've already spared a WHOLE blog entry for you havn't I?!?! Don't think I don't remember toopid girl.. coz I do...! *Evil Laugh* :D... But ur the beshtesht..the beshhteessht ever even though you havent been calling, and even if I think I dont get my due attention from you :P :P :P ( i sound like a jealous boyfriend!) I still love you :D



Aashay: Even though I'm mad at you, oh yeah... really really mad,super duper mad.. you can be a decent guy when you want to :P and a good listener, and lots of fun, and silly, and stupid oopz we were talking about your good qualities right.. anger and writing something about you so do not board well togther.. oh well..you are good, like really really good at making me shut up when I'm having a panic attack and uber sweet, and you let me sneeze like a crazy lady on your towel,and ok i 'll stop now :P... hmm yeah.. your not so bad yourself.. I might even heart you too :P <3



Amruta: Wacked out freak you might be, but a nice one :D ... Your stupid jokes I like, your dumb sarcastic remarks I like,Your never ending patience for my tantrums I like, your affinity for chocolate and french fries I like,your always being there for me whatever I like,our bus conversations everyday I like, Your Vacs cravings I like, you I like too!!!!! Gonna miss you when you run off to some dumb college :( :(



Rachina: Raaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiichuu!! Chi.. the mere mention of you name makes me hyper..! From the midnight conversations.. about stuff like 2 year olds views on LOOS ( you know you're uber gross..DONT YOU) to singing on the phone together.. you are cuteness personfied.. you are like the perfect thing,perfect daughter, perfect student, and a perfect friend.One of the reaally, really good influences on my life.. Your the least judgemental person, but everything seems so objective and clear from your perspective all the time..!Someday I am going to record you singing a song, and then you'll realise how cute you sound..! If I were a guy I would have sure shot fallen for you :P Just keep that wit going.. gonna miss you too u



freak :( :( :(



Bhavna: Oye Pataka... thanks for making life in the commerce section so much fun!You are the one person who simbly cracks me up in splits with the most normal stuff.Your matter of fact way of saying the most atrocious things, your soaring popularity,the way I know you


re always going to forgive me even when I don't call you after I promised to,they way you embrace life and whatever comes in the package..you probably don't know it..but you taught me a lot..about really enjoying life,about loyalty,friendship and about loving yourself the way you are.. and I thought I WAS outgoing..!!!SWEET!!!!!!!! :P :P :P



Varun: O.o How could I forget you re :P mad fellow only. Your annoying habbit of wishing anything (ANYTHING... remember 5th nov dont u shamelss fellow) at 11:59 in the night, to being one of the most patient listeners when I was sobbing on the phone (Galeez..how COULD I do that!!), to being subject to the most wacky of my plans.. You're one of my closest friends, we might have our fights but I know that I can always, always count on you.. and I hope you know the same..Thanks for being there.. through the toughest to happiest times.. you just rock..!



Ok.... now my mum's shouting.. I better get going before something unforseen happens, uhmm like me getting killed for example..!?!!?



Hehe... testimony to my friends will be continued.. :P So manny more people who mean so much more to me,and it is so shameless not to be mention them here..!! hehe.. another day is all It'll take though :D :D :D





Luffffff and lots of it!!
Nikho =)

Bored, Bummed and Busted!

Ok.. so I did very sadly, hit upon the realisation,that I am no more the adept nocturnal creature I once was.* sob sob* One day of staying awake till 4 30 for my parents, and I feel like I've had a hangover(HAHA...I WISH)...

One of those times when you feel like everything, from the (now,owing to due to repeateed hearings that I've noticed tend to destroy the value of most songs I like :P)irritating song by Shreya Ghosal from Jab We Met that my mom for some reason has insisted on playing 3 times as of now,the computer monitor that I have been staring at glazy eyed for the ummm.. past..ok wait, you are better of not knowing,and my very own sleepy headed existence seem pretty much surreal.

Today is one of those days, when I just feeel like spending time with myself..o.O, sitting around doing things I do everyday only with a more martyrlike(read bored) and depressed air :P

I feel like going out to a mall today, and spending some kazillion hours there today, doing window shopping for all the time I want.. all alone :P(and no, thats something I do NOT do on a regular basis...hah..I wish), switch my phone off and have something really chocolate.. like really, really chocolate... like the death by chocolate kinds..and Dahi chaat.. with lots of crunchy papdi and meethi chutney.. ...mmmmmmm!

Lol.. its like that feeling of unavoidable doom that you get ... oh wait, might that JUST be the impending results that will (predictebly) create hell and havoc..But nah, I cant really blame it on my results,or the way my mum has taken to lecturing me about what exactly I am doing wrong (which umm turns out to be quite a lot judging by the frequency of aforementioned pearls of wisdom) every 2 mins,just good ol Sundays that usually have this effect on you..

Was just going through my now LIMITED documents(thanks to my Hard Drive crashing, AGAIN!) and this was something, I wrote down while another one of those business studies classes where I am scrambling for any possible means of keeping myself from plonking asleep right away... incidentally.. i find scribbling nonsensical phrases on my dupatta quite therupatic in this respect :P

Oh ya...getting back to this thing I found, hehe... here it is :P

Have you ever noticed when its one of those days….!?!?

Have you noticed how, on these certain days when perhaps the sun rises from the wrong side or pink wolves have been howling in the night, that just EVERYTHING seems to go wrong? We just thought we could capture some of those truly memorable moments for u ;)

1. When that dress at Sindhi colony you were pining for is sold out as soon as you have the money to buy it?


2. When you teacher has to be in a bad mood and throw you out of class for not getting your notes or just when you forgot yours at home.


3. When the rain god decided to turn uncharacteristically generous just as you decided to don your favorite white tee.


4. When the RTC bus HAS to come 5 minutes early the day you are a bit slow on the uptake ;)


5. When the day you have that big party you want to dazzle at, you are bound to get the most horrendous looking zit just where it is the most noticeable


6. When you can trip on each of the many potholes that there are on the roads in the city, YOU WILL!


7. When the guy you have the hots for comes with a deep root red blush to tell you how much he “loaves” your best friend


8. When you and your best friend just have to make complete fools of yourselves in an up market restaurant just when the cute guy at the opposite table happens to glance in your direction


9. When the day you decide to take your cell phone to school is the day you WILL be busted without fail


10. When the day you chance a bunk at college is when the lecturer will cover the maximum portion, or rather worse the class will have the most free periods on ;)

Oh yea.. and when there is a wedding in my family on the 25th November, and one that I really badly want to attend(since,now thanks to aformentioned luck I cant attend the second one ..sigh):

• The club day has to be on the 24th of November, as opposed to the EIGHTEENTH last year


• A NATIONAL LEVEL debate has to come up in the precisely same week that I have to forgo


• SPB has to be super fun during this one week so that I totally, completely ,stupidely adamant about not giving it up


• The city 10K marathon has to be on the 25th.. as opposed to TWENTY EIGHTH last year

I tell you, whichever idiot said there's justice in the world, needs to come live with my... for like just 24hrs to know what I am talking bout..

A highly delusional,

Nikho =/

Lights,Love and Laughter =)

Whew.. these two days=whirlwind..! And in a nice, happy , busy kind of way I mean :D..where life seems full, and you can't really complain coz you love it!
I finally.. finally.. saw Jab We Met yesterday... KEYOOT is NOT the word..!!!
Just one of those movies, that make you leave the theater with a warmy fuzzy feeling and a stupid grin from ear to ear on your faces =).. so that was like good fun :).. hehe.. and yep thanks to the company too :P wacked out cinematic experience, what with all the bickering, but fun all the same!
Being Diwali of course.. the day apart from the morning was spent in family bonding, a marathon number of calls.. and just fraternising in general :)
Its funny isn't it, how these days give you such a perfect excuse and actually more of a compulsion to go out and meet and talk to people,whine about wearing a salwar kurta but enjoy dressing up all the same :),gorge on the perfectly delectable homemade sweets,bond with everyone around you, talk a lot on the phone on the pretext of Diwali and just have a nice time in general....
No crackers though..becoming a more pollution consious person hehe :P.. o.O
Strange how it didn't even affect me that there were no crackers for my Diwali this year... I just remember the time 2-3(ok ok TWO...sheesh!) years back when I would be begging dad for more n more crackers, wishing for an inexhaustable list of the best ones :D
But then as Nadia and me were talking, it feels like we've had our fills of those colourful anars,chakris and the bombs..now , we're perfectly content to sit on the sides, chat and watch the firworks go off punctuated by the occassional ka boooms :)
Dead tired today though... Irshikaa's birthday party in the evening.. which was a blast..!!!
It was so nice hanging out with my school friends for a change, to top it all.. it was an all girls bash :P.. so all of us were at perfect liberty to freak out completely..which we totally took advantage of :D.. so all in all, I really can't complain... hehe
Lol.. isnt it funny how some things, even just words, just have that exquisite quality of making you feel good,and give you that nice warm feeling ...making you all yappy yappy :D
Yooouuu knowww.. likee...

1. HuGz:Hehe, as much as I am not to comfortable with the whole concept unless I know the person super well.. the sound of this word just seems to give you this feeling of assurance,security.. hehe..like whenever anything goes wrong with either of us at school.. the first thing we end up asking each other is "Hug..."!!?!?! gayyy but i still like it :D :D
2. SuRpRiSeS: O.o thats one word that has me jumping up and down with anticipation =)..I mean what can be more nice than the feeling when some unexpected unintentionally intentionally planned good comes your way(too much dhoklas at Irshi's party getting to me now)..uh.. you get the point :P
3. ChOcOlAtEs: Chocolate Cakes, pastries,mousee,muffins,biscuits...I ask you can anything give you as much happiness as much as the perfectly made chocolate goody.. I of course am of the species who drools at the mere mention or picture of the aforementioned :P
4. SoFt ToYs: A room full of the most adorable,hugable teddy bears,bunnies and dooggiiess possible.. isnt that every girl's fantasy!?!?Lol.. I mean the more unapologetically cliche loving and self confessed girly types :P Even aisles full of those floppy things at malls or departmental shops just make me go weaakk in the knees :D
5. LeTtErS: I know its ancient, I know it doesn't happen anymore.. but still.. I just love getting those envelopes with my name on it,with no clue as to what it might contain.. yappy yappy!
6. LoVe SoNgS,MoVieS,BoOkS WiTh HaPpy EnDiNgS YaDa YaDa: Ooooooooo... Ur beaauutttiiful.. ur beauutiffull its true.... I saww ur face.. in a crowddeed place..n i dont knww what to do.. Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww just listening to them makes you feel like you want to be in a relationship , with a guy wooing you all the time :) and those " When Harry met Sally" variety movies..?!!? Just reinstates your faith in everything cute and adorable worth believing in. And all those books by Meg Cabot, where everything just HAS to go right in the end? They are CUSTOM MADE for such wacked out lists :P
7. OlD PiCtUrEs:One of my favouritest things.. albums and old,ancient,ancient pictures that hold proof of a time you almost forgot ever existed.. though my delight and surprise at how cute I WAS might have a hand in this too :P
8. RaIn: How could rain not possibely figure in the scheme of things here :P pretty self explanotary for anyone who knows me :P
9. FrIeNdS: Of course friends make you feel yappy all over..!! they're the ones who make you yappy even where your in the dumps,the ones who bail you outta every situation,pals,friends,mates,best friends,=OVERLOAD of craziness :P
10. LoVe: O.o ever noticed how nice it feels to see people you really like in a happy relationship?!? And those really really cute couples, that make you go like Awwwwwwwwwww... and just make your day....How the guy you like can just make your day or even have the capability of destroying it? Lets not get to the destructive part though :P, I just love the emotion of love... and the uninhibition,oblivion and fantasy-ness (for want of a better word :P) that comes with it..!

I don't know what prompted me to draft out such silly things.. that admittedly still do have the capabiltity of making my day a kazillion times over :D... the funny thing is, that I didnt even have to stop once as I was putting (oops rather typing...ah the wonders of technology:P) these thoughts down.. Hehe.. and the songs that buzzing in my head right now..?

Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens,

bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens,

brown paper packages tied up with strings,

these are a few of my favorite things.

Cream colored ponies and crisp apple strudels,

door bells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles.

Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings.

these are a few of my favorite things.

Girls in a white dresses with a blue satin sashes,

snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes,

silver white winters that melt into springs,

these are a few of my favorite things.

When the dog bites, when the bee stings,

when I'm feeling sad,

I simply remember my favorite things,

and then I don't feel so bad.

And I sure am feeling good right now :D :D *touchwood* :P

Yappy Dappy

Nikho =)

A thought.. and a thought too many!

Well..it had to get over didnt it.. and the exams finally did!!!!!
whats the problem then you might ask!?! Well..the question here is, where is all the exhiliration and zest and finally finishing with these darned things?!?!!Lol.. like Kavya said .. its none of the"feeling-like-falling-on-the-ground-and-kissing-it" variety of happiness that we used to experience so frequently(that would courtsey ummm the frequent NUMBER of exams) last year..But nonetheless.. it was fun..we did the thing we excel at the most.. looking at clothes in central and fantasising we had money enough to buy them :P
Whew... last year....a world of change is what I have experienced since that time..!!
Best friends made, the worst kinds of fights, the mud slinging ones that turned more bitter then I could have imagined,drifting apart from the people I held really close to my heart.. but yeah, life aint all that bad ;)
I found new people, friends that I have managed to hold on to, relationships that could last a lifetime :)
Lol... sometimes you just feel like sitting back and watching life go past.. just letting it take its course.. and somehow go with the flow you want it to..
yeah.. I do sorta realise I am not making the least sense right now :P
There are so many times.. especially in your teenage.. when you find yourselves at a crossroad of sorts..to do or not to do? Now THAT is a question!Theres such a vast difference in perspective from person to person, and I find myself being in conflict with other people so many times..maybe, its the difference in background...the difference in lifestyles..but it leaves me so confused and unsure.. is standing up for what you belive in and arguing it worth being put down in front of an umpteen people who think you're being silly( and in my case... I mostly am!!!), is doing what you want to..following your instincts, worth going against the more practical and sensible judgement of others who are right?Are my looks, my weight, my dressing so important that it is what I am judged by.. and admittedly what I tend to judge other people with too.. When is it that I would stop being envious of other people..and yeah I am..(God..someone shoot me before I make too many confessions I am going to regret!) because of petty reasons like flawless skin, a perfectly thin figure, an verflowing wardrobe that I wish I had....or being overtly possesive to the point(I am SO sure) of being suffocating for the people I love? It seems so tough to be secure within the parameters you live your life in... always something you want that you don't have,someone you want to be there for you who probably doesnt understand, and of course all those aforementioned superficialities... that seem to be scarily forming such an important part of my life these days...
At such times...I totally feel the absence of a sibling ..someone to bail you out of practically any situations with your parents,who gives you unconditional love despite all your numerous faults, whom I could tell anything..absolutely anything with the conviction that regardless of however wrong or right it maybe i wouldnt be partonised,someone to sit and pour my heart out to even in the middle of the night..,someone I could depend on..ALL the time..Lol.. I see so many siblings around me.. just having the time of their lives.. and I feel like I want all of it...the groping for more parental attention, the bickering, the silly games when you are bored, the teasing,the im promptu plans you are allowed to since you are going together,late night chats.. everything..but then i guess its too late for all that now .. :P
I guess I do know its amazingly stupid and silly of me to be wistful over something that can't be help.. but its just that when I am crying my head off over another fight and feeling terribly alone,or singing to myself coz I'm happy and still feeling alone.. I just wish there was someone who would make me smile even when I am down in the dumps,someone who would defend me all the time even if I am in the worng and noone would be able to say a thing,who would tell me to shut up because I was being an idiot, or who would just share my happiness because they would know EXACTLY how much something meant to me...
Ya.. it can be fun being the only child,being spoilt for choice and having the undivided attention of you parents yada yada.. but I still miss all of this.. and for all I know... a lot more...
Nikho =)

O.o.. It wudnt hurt would it?!?

Accountancy... whew.. I hardly remember hating even maths (shudder) with the same passion that I am feeling for this darned subject now..I mean hello.. I spend my entire morning doing rectification(if only in a combined effort with Bhavna) AND afternoon too.. for what...!?!?!? To open a stupid refernce book in the evening and gain the wisdom of a happy realisation that I have no memory whatsoever or logic as toh what any entry for those stupid ledger and journal accounts would be.. O.o frustrating is not the word..!! and I am too lazy to look up more effective synonyms in the thesaurus or even the online dictionary :P
But seriously.. if I fail, is there going to be some major catostrophe..!?! I mean barring the fact of course that,

• I would probably have to bid adieu to SPB
• same goes for HydroGen too :( :(
  Good bye to all outings(which my friends would readily vouch are a LOT) for a long long long time
• Good bye, most probably to mobile too(Et tu mobile :( )
• Non stop crying for an extended period of time
• Extra classes for accounts with the rest of my fellow failures.. O.o
• Jayanti Ma'am probably buring me alive,that is, if my parents dont do it first.
• O.o and can my parents throw me out for failing in the half yearlys.. can they, can they!?!!?!?

Life.. clearly does not look too terrific at this point of time.
And here, I am sitting and updating my blog... I can truly say I have found my vocation :D
Sigh.. failing is a matter of perspective of course.. as long as I am studying and putting in hard work.. right, right..?!!? Uhmm.. wait..that would be a NO since I am not studying either..
Woah..done for this time.. classic me.. and 2 DAYS,48 HOURS before the exam.. CLASSIC time for a panic attack.. goneeeeeeeeee...!
Oh and I am signing off now..
Tensed, no really.. VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY TENSED(thats just in case you dont get the point ;) )
Nikho :)

The good days after the bad ones :)

Well well.. it had to come hadnt it ;) the silver lining in the clouds? hehe.. well i guess it did..touchwood though :)...The day wasnt anything extraordinary..but there was this feel good thing in it.. you know the kinds you just get but cant put your finger on!?!?!?
Maybe.. just Maybe it has something to do with the very intelectually stimulating conversation I had with Bhav this morning
Bhav: Yaar.. I cracked really bad pj's yesterday.. that too with Subarna's brother who is in UKJ..!
( I would say understandably.. since he would be the only victim who would listen to your so called jokes with illusions that they would be good ones :P)
HOWEVER,
Me: uhuh...jaise...!?!?
Bhav: Yaaar..I told her brother.. theres this really abnormal looking child, who strangely resembles a very rare species of a monkey... which zoo has he come from?!?? ... Waise (now bhav getting hyper.. not something very out of the ordinary I very much assure you though :P)
Tu bataa.. bataa bataa ..chal try toh kar
Me:(actually making the mistake of attempting to think of an answer) No idea all knowing,I am
stumped
Bhav: (between snorts of laughter) Idiot.. monkey zoo of course!!!
Me: *Flabbergasted silence * ;)
Now THATS what I call feel good :D
Studies as usual nil...come to think of it.. why do I even bother ;)
Well, the day was a particularly lazy one.. that was just me making up for the hectic activity on sunday :D
Its finally begun to be a bit cold in Hyderabad.. and I of course, being I(i know i know, it should be a me, oh yeah and an "I" too ;) ) had to chose this day to wear a skirt on Pooja's scooty.. oopz.."KINECTIC HONDA" sincere apologies Pooja!!! By the time I got back home, it would be no understatement to say I was freezing....but somehow, I've always preffered winter to summers.
After all..Winters is something I always associate with

• glowing fireplaces(O.o ROMANTIC!!!)
• blankets to huddle into
• soft toys to cuddle
• good books to be read while you're trying to keep yourself warm
• hot chocoloate
• christmas
• my birthday (that just MIGHT have something to do with me liking the winters though ;) )
• Kavyas birthday(!!!!)
• Ani's birthday
• and Aashays too..!!!
• Lots of gifts
• Lots of pampering,
• soaking up the sun ( I just love excess of vitamin D during winters :D)
• Not having to have a bath too frequently,since its too cold to anyways :P
• colds to aid you in bunking school :D
• Colorful sweaters,cardigans and mufflers
• Fog in the mornings you can pretend you are smoking with ;)
• The inevitable feeling of laziness that winter brings with it.. ( uhmm.. yaa.. i am just making up an excuse for MY omnipresent laziness, but whatever :P)

Summers.. ON THE OTHER HAND, bring to my mind..

• sweat socked clothes..BLECH!!!
• Hot sultry days
• Electricity going off.. and each place seemingly resembling Sahara desert..not that I've been there ,but you get what I mean ,don't ya
• Those stupid,yucky days where you feel like you cant walk a step further before collapsing
• Getting black.. and no I really mean..BLACK
• Chocolates melting into gooey messes I fail to recognise!
  Electricity going with alarming regulatiry
• Some more sweaty clothes :(
• Traffic jams being UNBEARABLE, specially if you happen to have the 90's model of a MARUTI OMNI like me :-/

Basically, apart from the hols...I just don't like summer..period....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gimme rains...(ANYDAY) or even winter.. but none of those hot stickys days for me thank you ;)
Lol...." People who say that sunshine brings happiness, have Never danced in the rain"
AMEN :D

Guess who's back.. back again!?!?

Hehe.. does it feel good to be back ;) .. what is it anyways, the 934th time I am back after my favoured hiatuses?!!?But hey,who's complaining.. i still feel just as good when i get back to it :D
Yea.. i know instead of making a much looked forward to(hehe.. and now u mite ask.. how is it on planet I-so-wish-in-my-dreams anyways ;) ) ...comeback on my blog.. I ought to be focussing all my energies on the so inspiring and intriguing subject of e-business..not.But umm lets se.. going online,listening to music, chatting,and getting back to my blog..sitting on bed with an apple and memerising out loud the benefits of the infinite types of business for an infintely long time.. ..does it seem like that difficult a decision...i say not :P sometimes, u jst gotta recognise your priorities ;)
this weekend has sure been one of the most emotionally draining for me,the ironical part being it was all the consoling and pondering over how unfair it was,as to what happened to poor bhav who was subject to my pathetic consoling was.. and today of all the things to do when everything seems to be falling into place..I sat down and had a good cry!!Trust me though, it was very liberating..liberating enough to make me admit on umm.. I dont know a blog that a million people for all I know(yeah, Planet I-wish is prospering as you can c :p) would be reading..
But seriously.. I never anticipated that the teens could be such a messed up period!! Hello whatever happend to it being the best phase of your life,full of happiness bliss,carefree days yada yada?How come they never seem to attatch the statutary warning of having to deal with heartbreaks,confusion,mood swings(BIG ONES!) and some more confusion!?!?!
Really...I look at so many of my friends.. in such a hurry to become adults, and do things that would befit a 20 year old .. the varied experimentations, the almost scary quantity of implusiveness.. and then the resulting consequences.. and in all of those, the sweetness of adolesence..all lost.....
o.O just read that paragraph.. i sound pretty morbid .. =O
O well... I guess thats how it goes, you have the good days..the bad days.. and the terrible ones..hopefully this too shall pass.. muddleheadedness will someday cease to be a permanent fixture of my life and I will stop acting granny :P(much to the relief of my friends hehe)..oh yea.. AND stop leaving all the studying for the last possible moment, and even then coming online :P
hehe.. time to hit the books now..Byeeeeeeeee
**All that and more**
Nikho :D

Tsk Tsk..!!!

Its 6 30 in the morning.. I am looking like a cross between a bleary eyed ghost and myrad(I am NOT much of a morning person =D)I have a lot of OTHER important stuff I ought to be doing,such as

1. Prepare for my IP (for the uninformed, "informatics Practices"...baah just call it computers and get it over with!!!) exam, for which me being me, despite there being a sunday,I had more important stuff like stuffing myself with chocolate mousse in Kakatia to do :D
   
2. Start changing, considering theres umm just 20 mins left for the school bus..but hey, if you are infamous for your unpunctuality,might as well make some use of it :D
3. Start panicking in general ;) SINCE :-

• The ONE thing I knew in computers was mail merge, HOWEVER... at a very,very,VERT wrong time my computer has decided to turn all helpful and hence provide me with a ymail merge wizard, that can be of no help whatsoever for me to write down the steps in the exam.
• I THINK I have lost kavyas library book (ok..umm I am sure I have, SCREWED,SCRWED,SCREWED!!!!!!!!!!!!)
• I do not even have a test copy,and from the looks of it, I will NOT be procuring one any time soon..

• I am near clueless ab0ut my theory portion..what If my parents see my dismal performance in IP and decide to throw me in maths..haan haan haan!??!?!?!!?!?

Chi chi.. fail only I am ..sigh, better get going now..I hardly think dad is going to appreciate it if I ask him to drop me to school after all the chauffering I made him do yesterday..

A royal fail,
Nikho

Shit mahn...been such a long time..well..what can I say..am back folks..!!!! :D :D :DLol..sometimes i wish these extra exclamation marks could make up for my lack in spirit..if only..sigh..
Day was ok.. had the english exam..not great guns..but fine..but something just seemed wrong..maybe it was all the tension about the impending Business Studies exam..and then Bhavna was in a bad mood..and then Jayanti Ma'am tells us about the division of sections thats going to take place..Oo and it just HAD to be my luck that CMC and MEC are going to be in one section while all us CEC students are stuck together..well i guess this is what you get for bragging too much about opting out of maths :P...but still..it sorta sucks..that when you finally find your footing somewhere..you are just suddenly dragged off and thrown somewhere else again..and I guess what kind of hurt me is..when I looked around at class,at all the faces who were with me since the past However many months..I couldnt see a single one who might have missed,missed me enough to be as distraught as I was at hearing this news.Things sure come a long way in a short time..its so strange to thing I used to be a so called "social" person once upon a time..now I can bet on the fact that out of every 4 people who know me,I manage to rub 3 of them the wrong way..strange how I seem to have a knack for it.!!Strange how someone so close to me last year, can only claim to be on talking terms now..strange how many equations keep changing in my life..every single day...
Lol.. wish I could be an agreeable person for everyone around me for once.. muskil lagta hai par..Kudos to the poor souls still bearing with me :P.. Hmm.. feeling all sleepy now..I guess I'll jst have a milano and conk off..nothing like choco chip cookies to get ya highhhhhh..more later...no promish..!!
A tired,
Nikho ;)

Friends....and friendships day.!!

Well... I cant say today was particularly one of my best days...

1. School was a mini soap opera, with all the emotional turmoil in all of the student's lives :P.. getting found out by your mum about your various..escapades from ur diary(now....why does that sound familiar?!!?)...the class politics..etc..etc..etc..
2. Your plans getting rained on... even though they finally did work out :D :D
3. Spb class being a complete rip off.. with me being the favorite subject off humiliation for my beloved instructers..
4. No light, hormonal imbalance ( :P ), loads of hunger, general feeling of being wronged..blah blah blah

However, the strange thing is that today there seemed to be a perfect balance of both..!!Going to vacs with Kavya and Aashay..going high on chocolate,doing wacko stuff.. going to the club, and me trying to hide in our hideous uniform :P.. and being spotted by Anoushka,who failed pathetically at any attempts to control her laughter.Singing on top of my voice while Kavya sits next to me,completely non plussed and reading her book with commendable vigor.
"You'll always be my best friend,you have to be..you know too much!!!!"
-AnOnYmOuS
I guess thats what friends are for...Yepp.. an ode to Kavya.. for ALWAYS being there for me.
For keeping up with my mood swings, for picking up at 11 30 in the night even if she is sleeping when i call her, for not getting angry when I neglect to return her calls (happens a lot :P).. coz I guess she knws that regardless,she is an intrinsic part of my life..PERIOD,for crying with me when I cried,for giving in to my hair brained schemes,for doing my work whenever..(uhmm ohk ALWAYS :-s) I am too lazy to ,for drinking up my milk when she stays over :D , for risking her parents wrath soo many times for me,for teaching me the expertise of lying :P , for providing me reassurance about something as silly as an inter house debate to the boards,for listening to me without a word while I bawled on the phone for half an hour, for being the most non judgemetal person EVER...basically.. I am indebted to Kavya..for just being HER...
Yeah...we all know how highly unimportant and un-meaningful (please let it be a word :P) valentines day, friendships day and the likes are.. but its just that all the anticipated hype in the air, the special-ness (while I am at it, let that be a word too!!!) attatched to these days makes u feel like doing something special too..making the most of it...yep I know, Each day can be a day to make my friend feel special and that I shouldnt need the pretence of one day to do it..blah bah..but what the heck!?!?I dont care if its an excuse for the Archie's and Hallmarks of the world to make money.. it puts me in a mood to appreciate my friends(a full paged testimony on all of em.. none of them any less important, jst that I am dying to get to my ice cream rite now :D_=) O.o and I am so looking forward to the F.R.I.E.N.D.S and wonderyears special theyre going to be doing in honour of the day.. :P :P..yay...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Hmm guess I am getting high now..wheeeres the ish cream!!! Before signing off though....special thanks to Kavya and Aashay for putting up with my intolerable (yes I realise now) mood swings..u guys are the beshtest :D,loadz of evil glared to wacko potato and his SUCKY,SUCKY,SUCKY network.. and ..and..and..ish cream for myself..! yay...!!!
A high and wacked out
Nikho =)

The Power of Procastination :P

Whew.. today sure has been draining out...I am EXHAUSTED...in all repsects..!!
Of course that does not explain my lack of posts, we have good old laziness for that one :P
Well..the one thing to look forward to these days, is the incessant rain :D just awesomonical it is :D :D ..In fact, on tuesday.. I even say this rainbow, when I went off to the gym..after a half day at school PREFECTLY spent :D :D I could see this crystal clear rainbow.. now as far as rainbows go, I always thought they were lame and much too hyped..but boy, if the rains get me high.. i was sloshed on the rainbow :D ..It just seemed to honour my happiness or something (ya rite..bt i can dream na?)And i just finished this aweshum book by Daphne De Maurier,the Scapegoat.the ending as always in her books, is a bit vague..but all the same ..the book had phenomenal reading value..I stretched for AGES :D :D
O.o which reminds me, I havent been studying at all..!! O.o.. I better get to my books.. panic attack!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
More later..!!!!
A very worried,
nikho :D
P.S:(1): People who are sending their heartfelt apologies to me, might consider making more subtle references to me in their profile names :P
(2) why would anyone tell me they want to talk to me, and then proceed to keep their phone busy for the next 45 mins?
(3) I am pissed, tired,bored,procastinating when I ought to be studying,ignored,and did I say pissed?

RaIn rAiN,CoMe AgAiN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeshhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! It rained...yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!If theres anything I luff more than chocolate.. then thats the rains..wo0t..it was amazing..!!and the best thing was, it was at a time, when i was LEAST expecting it..!There I am, sitting in front of the computer..in a mad frenzy to complete my music review,before I got to the gym,and the lights conked off...in the middle of all my anger and frustration, i suddenly hear the pitter-patter of raindrops on the window,and the fresh-fresh smell..that could mean only one thing..!!!Rainss..!! and yep..voila..I was high!!Still am :D lolz...I dont why the rains make me so high.. I guess because I am reminded of those days when i really didnt appreciate them.Those 4 years in Assam..how ever much I might complain about them.. they do bring happy memories..memories of a time, when all us were still innocent and still oblivious to the complexities of adult..rather adolescence-hood(if thats a word :P) .. When the most exciting thing that could happen was winning the cycle race we used to have all over the camp(Dont look so shocked, i did win..TWICE!Swear!!!) and the biggest low down would be getting the den in hide and seek more than thrice :P .. How blissful those days were.!!So simple and uncomplicated..I mish it all..I miss..

1. Not being able to play hobscotch on the roadand jump around like a maniac,and make new rules so that the other people wouldnt get ahead :P (Lol..that one day when it was raining,with kavya being an exception.)
2. The park.. oh yeah the park..!! With all its sand to jump about it and that colossal dollhouse they had..lol!
3. Hide and seek behind my house,where all of us would be sneaking into the water pump station that was connected to the back garden of my house, and going goodness knows where..what torture for the poor "denner" :P :P
4. The "barbiefun club"(oh,I so know I am going to regret my bout of highness for this :P)or was it the rainbow club!?!? Lol.. that all of us "founded" with me as president :P..Mind you , we were really prim and proper with full circulers and meetings and all :D A mini kitty party if I say so myself :P :P
   
5. Baking cookies and making friendships day bands and going around the ENTIRE campus with its 35 officers and distributing the cookies to them and tying friendship bands to all the uncle auntys.. Lol..poor them :P ..the so called cookies,by the way, were marie biscuits with melted dairymilk on them :D ..not so bad now that I come to think of it..and not so bad either,that this then went on to become a tradition for the next 4 years that I was there :D speaking of which,I miss that tradition of buliding a Ravana all by ourselves during EVER Dusshera..and burning it with all the uncles and aunties :D :D
   
6. Bouncing,when the flying squardens were there..(for the uninformed..that is a practice in the defence services,bouncing means a group of officers forming a group in the middle of the night, and then making it their personal mission to wake up each and every officer and their family in the campus thereafter :D..extremely fun might I add) and staying out in a huge group till 7 in the morning..!!
7. I miss pokemon and spending half of my dad's hard earned money on Uncle Chips(which incidentally i couldnt stand..taste wise,Lays is better anyday :P) and collecting 176Jenga cards,and being actually PROUD of the fact!!!!!!!!!!!! Piiiiikaaaaaachhhhuuuuuuuuuu
8. Miss the mud fights we used to have at construction sites behind our houses..and the fateful scar I got from a particulary well aimed mud ball Sahil had thrown at me.
9. Miss Air Force School..with its Class VI(my first year in chabua,my batch :D)consisting of a grand total of 8 students :D :D
10. Miss playing baddiminton,table tennis,hide and seek,cut the cake (:P) till 8 30 in the night and my mom not giving a damn.Now I stay out of the house longer than 7 and theres a mini earthquake.
11. Miss the times when I used to be gutsy enough to try to race on a bike without my hands..(and breaking my tailbone in the process :P)
12. Miss the ghost stories we invented,when roaming around outside in the night,while our parents went to a party :D
    
13. Miss my house there..the beautiful house we had,with its glass room,the sprawling garden with pineapple groves and the fountain,and the black cat family..when Dad was Stn Commander..never really valued it then..sigh
14. Miss jumping around like a crazy woman, and wearing what I wanted to.. without wondering whether I looked to fat in it or too thin..coz back then..I DIDNT CARE!!!!!!!!!!!
    
15. Miss the green tea gardens..they were everywhere..and i mean EVERYWHERE..wherever u looked you could see them.and what a sight they made for!
16. Miss the silliness I used to have when I actually slapped a guy for saying something I dont even know if he even said..allegedly about me!And i made him cry! In the assembly..on childrens day!
    
17. Miss having a good relationship with my mum and dad..where our conversations revolved around more than how rude I was,or how unfair they are.
18. Miss the times when we would all go with our parents in jeeps for leopard hunting near the runway...(Swear people..there used to be this leopard family in our station..!! Sheesh..it was totally rad!!!!!!!!)
19. Miss my stuffed toys..the huge white one,the brown,the small white one :(all the ones that are packed away somewhere in a trunk coz there's no space for them.Awwww :( :(
    
20. n I miss.. I miss being me!!! I miss being free f the pressure,to constantly impress,to constantly please,to constantly appease..sigh..

Lol.. enough of the nostalgia now I say..!!!In a strange kind of mood though..seem alienated from my own self,distant,detatched..somehow lost ..and confused..maybe its just that people not replying to me,not responding,not acting like I matter... irritates me,those who treat me like a burden for a friend...constant insecurity seems to be the order of the day..!! Lol..better sign off now..!
A Shilly,shtupid and shad
Nikho =)

Of Sweat and surprises :P

Wo0t.. i am on the verge of being high..or low..or both :P....Our shiamak class today was sheer ..sheer..uh..unexplainable pain..!!!!! To all those innocent people out there..the next time you hear the words "passive stretch" run, run like theres no tomorrow..but just..run away from those scary words :P .. Trust me.. there is NOTHING passive about this stretch..I can actually see the veins of my thunder thighs (ok..its just a slight,faint green tinge u can see..but hey, it IS something!!!!!!!) :O ....And I stink :D :D :D :D.. hehe.. one bottle of Fa Aqua over, and I still sitnk :P :P .. Ok..I am becoming gross now :-S
What i feel like right now.. is having lots and lots of chocolate..Total chocolate from Vacs,the milky chocolate ice cream from Ohris,chocolate brownie gelato from Amore,milano,toblerone,a bulls eye...mmmm..the works :D
... lol, but strange as it might be, I know so many people..almost every girl (with the possible exception of Kavya.. pawnful that she is :D )who has "weighty issues" to worry about.. Wonders of mine will never cease,at the extent to which we are ready to go to..and for what? To fit into those skinny jeans that hardly make a difference to the "untrained"(read unfashionable like mine :P ) eye ... to look so skinny that people mistake you for being 2 years younger than you actually are...to impress "that guy" with the sickly veins,crying out for nutrition ( and thats actually a fact!! Veins sticking out of your body indicate that they need more nutrition!! :-/ ) protuding out,all over your body..to mess up your body? your health? your sanity? This is something I read in one of the Sdipa brochures: "The body is a temple..respect it".. but are we respecting it?The concept of "weekly binges" , the forlorn looks while the rest of us normal people eat ..lol..its funny.. but its also sad.All of us are so wrapped up worrying about a fit looking and thin physique that we seem to have forgotten to the basic concept of living.. EATING.. I mean its so simple..! What is the basic neccesity all of are working for?? Clothes,worst come worse, you wear rags, shelter u may still find..isnteating,food,nutrition the very ESSENCE of survival?As usual, I guess I am not that great at putting my point across..but yeah, something that I am very clear about..is that nothing,nothing pisses me off more thanpeople starving themselves,or denying themselves "treats" so that they can fit into those XS clothes that they're dying to buy, maybe the only thing that does piss me off.. is the rest of them, who have no other job but to comment on how much weight i gained on all the wrong places,how the t shirt makes me look fat,how chubby I look in that photo...yes, I eat whatever i want, i binge on all the chocolates I want, I gym but I hog after that,I might not be the skinniest person on Earth..But you know what? I don't give a damn!! So BUZZ OFF!!!! I mean how many girls(MOSTLY...!!) must be driven to disorders like Bulemia and Anorexia just because of hyprocrites like these?Another feature I have noticed, that all these people who love to scrutinise others appearences will themselves, hog like pigs and not curtail their absolutely colossal appetite in any way..its such a vicious circle..I see this obsession with growing fat on a REGULAR BASIS ( and slowly, I even scarily found myself being dragged into it.. Kavya.. this is for you, i have regained my senses!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yay!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D ).. and I hate it.. its evil,sick and pathetic..its almost like these people dont care about the possible havoc they're doing their bodies AND minds(The brain is known to develop till the age of 21- so dieting before that age, actually even curbs its development..!! no wonder these people cant make any sense out the utter rubbish they're indulging in!)..sigh..All I can say is that I pray for all u people, part f the skinny jeans-not for the masses bandwagon.. get into those jeans, get your size zero t shirts- good for you...
Oh well.. me off to eat something now.. :D : .. all this food talk is making me hungry.. :P :P
Signing off..

A preachy and peachy
Nikho :P

Yipee Dipee yay....

Today i am in those strange,vague sort of moods..where ou feel indifferent, and yet you want to remain connected...where you feign interest when you are fighting to break free from the monotony.. sigh.. jst one of those weird,wacky moods..
Hmm..while being stuck a traffic signal.. ever noticed the inevitible moment when a forlorn looking,ragged child is going to start wiping the window of your car.. regardless of the fact that you might not be looking for the services, and in happy oblivian to the look of irritation..even contemp on your face..and yet, when I see these kids working...though I confess to be a tad irritated myself,I am sometimes reminded of this incident when i was pretty young..Dad had taken all of us for a drive around India Gate..and just as we were getting back, we encountered a traffic signal.. and there comes this guy who would be around 14..selling balloons..me being too tired to pester Dad for a balloon, he flatly refused..and the guy goes like.. if there were a child begging right now, he would have managed to get money..and when I work, I earn less than the ones who beg...Hmm.. kinds brings out our hypocrisy to the core doesnt it?All of us (specially those of who mite have seen madhur bhandarkars movie :P ) cant quit complaining about the amount of beggers.. but who sustains them..!?!?In a fit of sympathy, particularl tugging moment at our conscience, we will invariably give alms to a begger..but how many of us are going to give a person who's trying to fight it out, trying to make him self worthwile and EARN his money.. well deserved money?How much would it really take.. to buy a brooch worth 5 bucks?Or a packet of earbuds priced at Rs.10?Lol.. my point here being ( I have a tendency to digress :P ) that,it wouldnt hurt would it... if we once in a while, bought a balloon if only for someone else, bought the independence day brooches for 5 bucks(which actually do look good..swear!!!)or just a packet of earbuds (O.o I am obsessed :P )..hehe basically u get the point..sigh.. wish I could put it across better..
SIgning off now.. for sheer want of something to do :P
A sleepy,vague,pissed off and wacky,
Nikho =D

Wow...!!!

Ohk... these past two days.. have in the true sense of the word been a WHIRLWIND..!!!!!!!!!Getting up in the morning yesterday and getting excited about the impending HydroGen meeting.. seems like a faarrr off time now..!!!I mean really.. wow..!!!! Since when has my life so been full of work..lol!!! And work that was amazin,amazin fun..how many 15 year olds after all, get to go around taking surveys of people in City Centre about their views on independence day, while the poor recipents throw me postively stricken looks, wondering what they got themselves into :P..AND even if I do say so myself, Rahul,Sushma and me, do make quite a formidable team :D :D I can still feel the ache in my tummy when

1. Sushma went to check out that chinky guy, just to see if he was "young" enough for our survey..OHMG...LOL!!!!
2. Her best friend's sister giving her the complete,the really attitude waala cold shoulder, while Rahul and me only worsened her misery my repeatedly pointing out to the chick and even going on the same floor as hers :D ..
3. those guys in McDonalds,who would have been very content if the only thing we mentioned in their survey was that they are "medicos",
4. walking up the entire,length and breadth of city centre..just in the search of some plassible young beings to favour us with FIVE MINUTES of their time (here, special mention to the fact that now I am very firmly accquainted with the universal law CUTE PEOPLE=OBNOXIOUSLY,UNBELIEVABLY RUDE PEOPLE)..,
5. Sushmas constant heart attacks over the fact that her parents were going to call any moment, and then heart ache at the fact that they did not bother about her when they DIDNT..!!
6. And then me shouting, at the 5th floor.. on the top of my frikin voice that there were two cute guys,3 floors below :D :D (hey,but we WERE cuteness and youthness starved..what can I say!!!)
7. Going to eat street..known to be the breeding ground for all cheapness possible and suddenly finding all, and I mean ALL the cute guys of the world.
8. Wonderment at all of Sushma's very goth, and funny tendencies :D and her actually believing us when we went like her mom had finally called..on MY cell :D
9. Getting ice cream all over Rahul's car's leather seats AND then misdirecting him well enough to get the poor guy to go to Bowenpally from CAW..(Ah...I never was a very goof navigator)
10. Basically..EVERYTHING.. as I observed in the at the end of our little expedition..I had never laughed so much ever..!!!

Though I met never be able to put the experience,aptly enough in words..yesterday, I got a whiff of what it really feels like to go out and "do" stuff..stuff that doesnt neccessarily involve around my studies,classroom politics,going out and enjoying.. its not something I am obligated to do, it is something I chose to.. and boy am i loving it!! Whatever might be the outcome, I'll always be grateful to HydroGen not only for this aweshum exposure.. but also for the two most uber cool,rawking,criminal :P friends.. Rahul and Sushma :D ( even though their taste of music in the car might go rite above my head.. wacko potato u have to learn to stick to one song!)
Coming home totally exhausted,having a long chat with Tania, and even Aashay after a really long time.. same with varun.. compartively :P while messging.. and reading :D.. before falling into blissful sleep,with a deep sense of satisfaction :)
And then today wasnt bad either :P ..reached the bus on time (and YAY to that :D)Made up with Kavya ( and a BIGGER YAY to that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)...finally understood accounts (I am on fire mahn :P )..hehe.. touchwood and thank god as always :) ... Of course.. somethings like the infamous chinky.. wud be better off away frm the vicinity of my life..
The conversation between chinky and me, with his gang of friends surrounding me(after he has been avoiding me, with me being very happy mite i add, like plague,post my shouting marathon):
Chinky (with a wide smile, I can only guess was meant to be charming): Hiiii
Me(best trapped animal voice i could come up with): uh hi
Chinky(In a deep,frankly FREAKY baritome): so, I am still waiting for your answer
Me(looking around now.. i LOVE the trapped animal imitation :D): Uh..WHAT answer!!?!
Chinky(deep,supposed to be look-into-my-eyes voice) : You know, what answer...
Me(actually freaking out, and running :D :D :D ) : waaateeeveer
And after this, uhm very intresting and enlightening conversation..Chinky and his fellow freakos proceed to follow me while i am making announcements, like the stalkers u see in B-grade films (nt that I have seen any :P)
Hehe.. however, to all the (if any)innocent readers, the following piece of infromation should in no way, tarnish our image of the great Army School Rk Puram, a most praise worthy institution,with an excellent dress code and positively ADORABLE P.T Instructers :)
Ah.. yesh.. so come back hme.. gymming..(yayyy!!)..getting told off by the gymming instructer for talking too much (whaa..even here..!!!!)..and spending loadssss of time with my friends.. catching up with stuff..it was FUN!!!And then the bombshell.. a sudden HydroGen assignment to 10D..wo0t.hw many 15 year olds get free entry to 10D now!?! ..:D :D :D Of course, the fact that as soon as , (yep ...the terrible trio again :D ) Rahul,Sushma and me entered the pub (not without" mummy" and "daddy" instructing me, that I in no way was to get myself into any sorta troouble), we were informed that the event was cancelled.. hey! but it counts for an experience doesnt it :P
Nw if only I could find crackle somewhere.. my day would be complete..these sudden urges for certain chocolates/ice creams/anything edible .. are shoo irritating :P
Wud luff to continueeeeeeeeeeeee( I am hyper..yayyyyyyyyyy!!!!!! :D ), hwever,I do not intend to get myself killed at the hand of my now fuming mother, before I
a) Get into St.Stephens ( I am allowed to dream aint I!)
b)Get a date with Kunal Kapoor (hehe..since we are at it :P )
c)Eat all the gelatos in the world (if I have to die anyways..:P)
d) All of the above (yaaaaaaayyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!)
yesh so nw signing offffffffffffffffff,
A very hypa,high and shtupppidddddddd :D
Nikho =)

Where the Mind is without Fear.....

"Where the mind is without fear, and the head is held high" .. these two lines,ever since we read the entire poem, in class VIIIth.. are always imprinted somewhere..in the back of my mind. And today, when I suddenly came across the poem,while working for some hydrogen stuff..i was hit by a barricade of those sudden "patriotic thoughts" that come to all of us..every once a while
.Somewhere down the line, all of us seem to have become so preoccupied with our lives,our trivial and petty problems that those sacrifices,the passion and vigor of our freedom fighters seems to have become restricted to the boundries of those countless songs, essays,documentries,biogrophies...Oh ya, every once in a while..there will be a Rang De Basanti, there will be a Lage Raho,and the country will be overflowing with new found emotions of patriotism and a fervor to "do something" for the country.And then it slowly fades away....at most, someone goes ahead and creates an orkut community on RDB with impassioned introductions...those communties which (as i jst mentioned to Rahul :P ) are now filled with most interesting and socially relevant topics like "Kiss or Slap","Rate the pic of the person below u","Boys vs girls" among the other intellectually stimulating ones.Where has the sense of self, the sense of self for the country disappeared? Have we become so absorbed in our own pettiness,and so determined in our cynisism of the state of our motherland,that even the mere thought of doing something to change it invites indifference.
We keep harping on about Brain Drain, and yet..an eternal fantasy and dream come true,for every second India is settling somewhere abroad.Somewhere away from the murky,congested roads,away from the unsettling state of the job opportunities,or lack thereof, away from the tangles of corruption that reach far and wide, away from the slums..that in sharp contrast to upcoming malls and IT centres,are such an eyesore,.. away from those politicians,who are too busy counting the money in their pockets,to have eyes or ears for antyhing else...yes..we all look forward to that escape,escape from our country..that gave us so much,escape from everything we ever complained about..everything that is amiss in our motherland..escape from all the chaos and confusion..
And then we have the NRI's... I find it so strange..tht once out of the country,these people take great pride in celebrating festivals,national days.. anything really, that establishes their identity,their link with the place they want to call their "homeland"..takes them hardly two years to adopt an accent that makes them more acceptable in a foriegn place though.
Not to sound like a hypocrite, I have to admit I myself have not in the least done anything, that I can be essentially proud of.It is, like I said before, just one of those moments when you look back and just...think.
Lol.. i could go on about this, like a stark raving maniac, and not make any sense.. so I guess its better I sign off, recover some sanity and make an advent once again :D
Signing off,
A very loony nikho :D

U n I.... In this beautiful world =D

Yep... today is one of those days.. when though everything might not be extraordinarily perfect,life just looks good :D ...School, despite full 45 mins periods today, was a lot of fun. Maybe it was some weird feel good factor in the air :P .. but for once.. there was no akwardness,no stupid fights,no pretences..at least in class... maybe the concept of unity is FINALLY going down our demented brains :D
However, all of us have now suffered from the biggest disillusionment of all times..for all those innocent minds who suffer from the impression that commerce is easy.. two words of caution.. ITS NOT!!!!!!!!!!!
Three periods of accounts today, and i was ready to bang my head against the wall, if I heard the words "credit","debit" or "accounting" ever again..!!! And to think this is just one of the first few chapters..clearly I am not destined to top in 11th :P ( hehe.. as if ;) )
And coming back to the feel good stuff.. I was pleasantly surprised and almost disbelieving, when Aashay did not mouth a single word of protest, despiter the big-time,the really unforgivable kind of ditching I put him through :O ... O.o Too good that guy is :D
Some strenous working out in the gym, and a nice,long chat with Wacko potato, and antara..nothing in the day I can really complain about..
Sadly though.. I still havent managed to complete the feat of finishing HP :D .. though I did try hard... I mean reading till 2 in the night does count, doesnt it? doesnt it? :P
Loads of homework pending as usual...good to know.. that some things in life, NEVER change =D Signing off now...Ravenous and starving (YES I KNOW...they mean the same thing, but what the heck :D)
Nikho :)

Essence of the day...MONTONY!!!

Well.. today was one of those days.. where you cant really complain about anything.. everythings good..but not great..and the cynic in me,cant help but say..how montonous can things get!! Lol.. never happy am I..
Unbelievable as it might seem.. I still haven't finished my Harry Potter 7.. Freaky isnt it..!!! Thanks to some people though.. who ditched me.. sigh..(hint,hint!!)
Well.. the one plus point of the day was the slight shower we had.. :D
The feeling of fresh rain drops, pitter pattering on the windows and roof, falling on my face with same tenderness with which they fall on everything esle.. it gives me a high (as Amu aptly observed :P ) like nothing elsh..The lush greenery, the cool breeze accompaning the rains, the wet,drenched sight that greets you everywhere you look.. O.o not to forget the smell.. doesnt everything smell simply delicious just after rains?!?! O.o I am getting freaky now :D
Speaking of delicious.. wacko potato deserves special mention today thanks to the delectable chocolates he got me :D ..
I have noticed.. that with some people.. my relationship is confined to messaging, or the net ot whatever. Its like while I am online, or messaging,basically not face to face with the person.. i can talk as much as I want.. but as soon as you meet.. there are akward silences,nervous looks, edgy eyes..the works.. these relationships.. from previous experience, turn out to be short lived.. the ones that last.. are where you talk nineteenth to dozen (no mean feat for me :D ) even when you meet.. you comfort level is undaunted by the fact that you do not have the shield of any technology supporting you.. and I am thankful to have such relationships, as far as I am concerned, in plenty in my life.. :D
Signing off now..
A very wise, philosophical and sleepy :D
Nikho

and the saga continues (ugh..sick chapter though :P)

Hmm.. yep. this happens to me allll.. the time..Taking up something with unmatched zest and then getting all lazy bout it :P.. hehe..
Oh well.. No use crying over spilt milk now.. this week has been an extremely emotionally and physically draining one... a teenageres life,people is in no way free from these hazards of life...split ups... hearts broken..low self esteem.. the low phases of our life.. how they seem to be defining our lives at those moments, and how..later on in life, we become wiser, bestowed with the wisdom.. that these times have only become stepping stones...stepping stones,to greater,happier times in this journey we like to call life.
Apart from that though, all hasnt been morose, yesterday ... kavya and me, like typical "loser-jobless-freaks-kinda potter fans" bunked school (actually, we were just luking for a reason to :P ) and went to get our issues of the latest hp at shoppers, disappointed by the lack(rather nil) festivities there,we went to city center.. and completely freaked out.it was yesterday, that i discovered the sheer unadulterated joy of sitting in a book shop, eating away and reading a book that you havent even purchased :P .. and when time is at your side,you can, in the literal sense lose yourself there.After that was Deli 9.. sinister chocolate delights, and a book u have been waiting for, since days..perfect :D
Right now though.. I have a lot of angry people on my case.. sigh dunno how get into these perfect messes.. but then sleeping rite when u r in the middle of msging someone.. is pretty unpardonable :P
Oh well.. one page of my life.. that'll hopefully have a happy ending by the time the sun sets.. :D :D....Signing out, and going to amore for ice cream (YAYAYAYAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D )
A nonchalant,
Nikho

Confrontation time again =P

Hmm.. so it was that time of my life again(which...incidentally..seems to come quite often..!!!!) ..when someone comes up to me and goes like,"nikita,do you have a grudge against me?!".. now the universal law of my life is (as most of my friends,limited as they maybe, know) that I have absolutely NIL control over my formidable(haha..I WISH) anger...surprisingly though.. my interesting encounter today morning,might have left me dazed,dumbfounded(i know they mean the same thing,but what the heck!!!)..et al,et al.. one thing I definately WASNT, was angry!!Oh ya sure, there was the whole disgust thing at the entire backbiting scenario, but inwardly I even found myself laughing at the petty poiltics, each one of us (myself duly included) indulges in..as karishma and me were very serenly (NOT =P ) contemplating in the bus today, how much of a difference will todays day make in our life 2 years hence..yep, none.. Lol.. not that this really,in anyway enhances the tragedy I am stuck in at present,A girl does need her talking time (eshpecially me :D) in class to doesn't she?!?! Oh well.. as Kurry wisely said, while we traded our woes "this too shall pass" :)
My poor vocal chords, meanwhile are being subjected to terrible torture.What with the investiture compering(yeah, I decline to be a part of it, by being a jobless dc..thanklessly marching away, and they make me the compere..thanklessly shouting away and still a part of the investiture, ingenious.) and shiamak workouts are going to burst any moment. Though, I might complain all the time about all the work, I have .. it is actually a lot of fun.Having so many things to do keeps you going all the time.. If not school work, then spb, if not that then hydrogen..touchwood, and thank god..it helps me keep it real with all the drama in school :D Hmm.. well that and the wonderfully long nocturnal and meaningless conversations with Kavya ,Aashay and Varun ... my heartfelt thanks to the aforementioned bravehearts for keeping up with eccentricities and insantiy as well as they keep up with my depressed monlogues too =P I owe you people :D (dont quote me on it though :-/)..Its 11 50 in the nite, and what I am doing?? Looking for pictures of shupermodels with purfect looks to suit our article on grooming :P
hehe.. i luff it anyways, being the weirdo I am..!
However,before my looniness begins to show..(wait,begins..what begins..!!!) ..
Over and out,
Nikho :D

Mondays suck...no really...

Yep......so all my fears yesterday about today being totally monotonous,useless and an utter waste of time...were so unfounded..not.School was pretty much the pits.I mean politicians themselves can actually think about taking a leaf or two from high schools..not as exaggerated as your mean girls drama (trying to keep it real :P ) of course..but a close,close second.
And it seems to me.. that when you are really,really dying for a book..u will almost NEVER..find one..sigh....with all due respect to our school librarian,she simply refused to see my acute case of boredom and relent.The school right now,is all abuzz with the whole glamour(ahem) of the investiture ceremony..strange,when you come to think about it,as to how so many of the children who experience the feeling of immeasurable pride at this moment..have a very high probability of,in just a few months,complaining about all the work they have..Lol...I remember how at this time of the year,in 2006,kavya and me couldn't stop groaning about the fact as to how unfair just being in 10th is.Not only were we under the constant scrutiny of everyone around us,we were slowly being forced into isolation by the school..or so we chose to think :P Isolation..I have come to believe,is not such a bad thing after all..(after all, I experience it most of the time these days don't I)..in fact, today I noticed, that my people skills(if I had any in the first place) have deteriorated to almost..what almost..to nil..lol..but I don't really mind it that much. I am pretty content,for the moment :

1. Sitting on the last bench, which is so low that I cant see the teacher,and more beneficially vice versa :D(enables me to sleep,read a novel,or daydream at my convenience :D )
   
2. Trying to complete my business studies,accounts and English work..needless to say succeeding at none :D
3. Sitting in the zero period and enjoying chats with Kavya under the pretext of "IP NOTES'( yep..that's right..IP NOTES), while the rest of the school slogs it out marching in the grounds :D (gosh..what in the world happened to my school spirit?!!?)
4. Basically..In class..I am perfectly happy,being a part of the wall =D
   

Just spending time with yourself,can be so much fun..! Pretending you are witty,a cut above the rest,and too good to mingle with the rest of them..paah..cheap thrills I tell you :P
Well.. apart from school... the first thing I did was reach home and rush to my besotted(my mobile,for the uninformed)to see a missed call from Kavya, which was strange..considering we had just met in school.And I was happily,uber happily surprised to know that her dad has managed to snag the HP tickets for us :D .. though in my more normal,sane and basically HIGH moments, I would be way,way more excited...ahh wadeva..As my fortune cookie(LOL) at Ohris said yesterday :D ,"there are dark clouds at present,but they shall pass soon" .. well..they seem to be clearing at any rate..getting the tickets at the Imax for Hp..definitely counts as an improvement :P
Hmm..better get cracking now though..the gym awaits :-/

Waiting for a clear sky,
Nikho XD

P.S- I would have added an uber cool poster of Garfield proclaiming Mondays suck,but this blog wont let me accept the terms and conditons =( shtupid thing