O.o.. It wudnt hurt would it?!?

Accountancy... whew.. I hardly remember hating even maths (shudder) with the same passion that I am feeling for this darned subject now..I mean hello.. I spend my entire morning doing rectification(if only in a combined effort with Bhavna) AND afternoon too.. for what...!?!?!? To open a stupid refernce book in the evening and gain the wisdom of a happy realisation that I have no memory whatsoever or logic as toh what any entry for those stupid ledger and journal accounts would be.. O.o frustrating is not the word..!! and I am too lazy to look up more effective synonyms in the thesaurus or even the online dictionary :P
But seriously.. if I fail, is there going to be some major catostrophe..!?! I mean barring the fact of course that,

• I would probably have to bid adieu to SPB
• same goes for HydroGen too :( :(
  Good bye to all outings(which my friends would readily vouch are a LOT) for a long long long time
• Good bye, most probably to mobile too(Et tu mobile :( )
• Non stop crying for an extended period of time
• Extra classes for accounts with the rest of my fellow failures.. O.o
• Jayanti Ma'am probably buring me alive,that is, if my parents dont do it first.
• O.o and can my parents throw me out for failing in the half yearlys.. can they, can they!?!!?!?

Life.. clearly does not look too terrific at this point of time.
And here, I am sitting and updating my blog... I can truly say I have found my vocation :D
Sigh.. failing is a matter of perspective of course.. as long as I am studying and putting in hard work.. right, right..?!!? Uhmm.. wait..that would be a NO since I am not studying either..
Woah..done for this time.. classic me.. and 2 DAYS,48 HOURS before the exam.. CLASSIC time for a panic attack.. goneeeeeeeeee...!
Oh and I am signing off now..
Tensed, no really.. VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY TENSED(thats just in case you dont get the point ;) )
Nikho :)

The good days after the bad ones :)

Well well.. it had to come hadnt it ;) the silver lining in the clouds? hehe.. well i guess it did..touchwood though :)...The day wasnt anything extraordinary..but there was this feel good thing in it.. you know the kinds you just get but cant put your finger on!?!?!?
Maybe.. just Maybe it has something to do with the very intelectually stimulating conversation I had with Bhav this morning
Bhav: Yaar.. I cracked really bad pj's yesterday.. that too with Subarna's brother who is in UKJ..!
( I would say understandably.. since he would be the only victim who would listen to your so called jokes with illusions that they would be good ones :P)
HOWEVER,
Me: uhuh...jaise...!?!?
Bhav: Yaaar..I told her brother.. theres this really abnormal looking child, who strangely resembles a very rare species of a monkey... which zoo has he come from?!?? ... Waise (now bhav getting hyper.. not something very out of the ordinary I very much assure you though :P)
Tu bataa.. bataa bataa ..chal try toh kar
Me:(actually making the mistake of attempting to think of an answer) No idea all knowing,I am
stumped
Bhav: (between snorts of laughter) Idiot.. monkey zoo of course!!!
Me: *Flabbergasted silence * ;)
Now THATS what I call feel good :D
Studies as usual nil...come to think of it.. why do I even bother ;)
Well, the day was a particularly lazy one.. that was just me making up for the hectic activity on sunday :D
Its finally begun to be a bit cold in Hyderabad.. and I of course, being I(i know i know, it should be a me, oh yeah and an "I" too ;) ) had to chose this day to wear a skirt on Pooja's scooty.. oopz.."KINECTIC HONDA" sincere apologies Pooja!!! By the time I got back home, it would be no understatement to say I was freezing....but somehow, I've always preffered winter to summers.
After all..Winters is something I always associate with

• glowing fireplaces(O.o ROMANTIC!!!)
• blankets to huddle into
• soft toys to cuddle
• good books to be read while you're trying to keep yourself warm
• hot chocoloate
• christmas
• my birthday (that just MIGHT have something to do with me liking the winters though ;) )
• Kavyas birthday(!!!!)
• Ani's birthday
• and Aashays too..!!!
• Lots of gifts
• Lots of pampering,
• soaking up the sun ( I just love excess of vitamin D during winters :D)
• Not having to have a bath too frequently,since its too cold to anyways :P
• colds to aid you in bunking school :D
• Colorful sweaters,cardigans and mufflers
• Fog in the mornings you can pretend you are smoking with ;)
• The inevitable feeling of laziness that winter brings with it.. ( uhmm.. yaa.. i am just making up an excuse for MY omnipresent laziness, but whatever :P)

Summers.. ON THE OTHER HAND, bring to my mind..

• sweat socked clothes..BLECH!!!
• Hot sultry days
• Electricity going off.. and each place seemingly resembling Sahara desert..not that I've been there ,but you get what I mean ,don't ya
• Those stupid,yucky days where you feel like you cant walk a step further before collapsing
• Getting black.. and no I really mean..BLACK
• Chocolates melting into gooey messes I fail to recognise!
  Electricity going with alarming regulatiry
• Some more sweaty clothes :(
• Traffic jams being UNBEARABLE, specially if you happen to have the 90's model of a MARUTI OMNI like me :-/

Basically, apart from the hols...I just don't like summer..period....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gimme rains...(ANYDAY) or even winter.. but none of those hot stickys days for me thank you ;)
Lol...." People who say that sunshine brings happiness, have Never danced in the rain"
AMEN :D

Guess who's back.. back again!?!?

Hehe.. does it feel good to be back ;) .. what is it anyways, the 934th time I am back after my favoured hiatuses?!!?But hey,who's complaining.. i still feel just as good when i get back to it :D
Yea.. i know instead of making a much looked forward to(hehe.. and now u mite ask.. how is it on planet I-so-wish-in-my-dreams anyways ;) ) ...comeback on my blog.. I ought to be focussing all my energies on the so inspiring and intriguing subject of e-business..not.But umm lets se.. going online,listening to music, chatting,and getting back to my blog..sitting on bed with an apple and memerising out loud the benefits of the infinite types of business for an infintely long time.. ..does it seem like that difficult a decision...i say not :P sometimes, u jst gotta recognise your priorities ;)
this weekend has sure been one of the most emotionally draining for me,the ironical part being it was all the consoling and pondering over how unfair it was,as to what happened to poor bhav who was subject to my pathetic consoling was.. and today of all the things to do when everything seems to be falling into place..I sat down and had a good cry!!Trust me though, it was very liberating..liberating enough to make me admit on umm.. I dont know a blog that a million people for all I know(yeah, Planet I-wish is prospering as you can c :p) would be reading..
But seriously.. I never anticipated that the teens could be such a messed up period!! Hello whatever happend to it being the best phase of your life,full of happiness bliss,carefree days yada yada?How come they never seem to attatch the statutary warning of having to deal with heartbreaks,confusion,mood swings(BIG ONES!) and some more confusion!?!?!
Really...I look at so many of my friends.. in such a hurry to become adults, and do things that would befit a 20 year old .. the varied experimentations, the almost scary quantity of implusiveness.. and then the resulting consequences.. and in all of those, the sweetness of adolesence..all lost.....
o.O just read that paragraph.. i sound pretty morbid .. =O
O well... I guess thats how it goes, you have the good days..the bad days.. and the terrible ones..hopefully this too shall pass.. muddleheadedness will someday cease to be a permanent fixture of my life and I will stop acting granny :P(much to the relief of my friends hehe)..oh yea.. AND stop leaving all the studying for the last possible moment, and even then coming online :P
hehe.. time to hit the books now..Byeeeeeeeee
**All that and more**
Nikho :D

Tsk Tsk..!!!

Its 6 30 in the morning.. I am looking like a cross between a bleary eyed ghost and myrad(I am NOT much of a morning person =D)I have a lot of OTHER important stuff I ought to be doing,such as

1. Prepare for my IP (for the uninformed, "informatics Practices"...baah just call it computers and get it over with!!!) exam, for which me being me, despite there being a sunday,I had more important stuff like stuffing myself with chocolate mousse in Kakatia to do :D
   
2. Start changing, considering theres umm just 20 mins left for the school bus..but hey, if you are infamous for your unpunctuality,might as well make some use of it :D
3. Start panicking in general ;) SINCE :-

• The ONE thing I knew in computers was mail merge, HOWEVER... at a very,very,VERT wrong time my computer has decided to turn all helpful and hence provide me with a ymail merge wizard, that can be of no help whatsoever for me to write down the steps in the exam.
• I THINK I have lost kavyas library book (ok..umm I am sure I have, SCREWED,SCRWED,SCREWED!!!!!!!!!!!!)
• I do not even have a test copy,and from the looks of it, I will NOT be procuring one any time soon..

• I am near clueless ab0ut my theory portion..what If my parents see my dismal performance in IP and decide to throw me in maths..haan haan haan!??!?!?!!?!?

Chi chi.. fail only I am ..sigh, better get going now..I hardly think dad is going to appreciate it if I ask him to drop me to school after all the chauffering I made him do yesterday..

A royal fail,
Nikho

Shit mahn...been such a long time..well..what can I say..am back folks..!!!! :D :D :DLol..sometimes i wish these extra exclamation marks could make up for my lack in spirit..if only..sigh..
Day was ok.. had the english exam..not great guns..but fine..but something just seemed wrong..maybe it was all the tension about the impending Business Studies exam..and then Bhavna was in a bad mood..and then Jayanti Ma'am tells us about the division of sections thats going to take place..Oo and it just HAD to be my luck that CMC and MEC are going to be in one section while all us CEC students are stuck together..well i guess this is what you get for bragging too much about opting out of maths :P...but still..it sorta sucks..that when you finally find your footing somewhere..you are just suddenly dragged off and thrown somewhere else again..and I guess what kind of hurt me is..when I looked around at class,at all the faces who were with me since the past However many months..I couldnt see a single one who might have missed,missed me enough to be as distraught as I was at hearing this news.Things sure come a long way in a short time..its so strange to thing I used to be a so called "social" person once upon a time..now I can bet on the fact that out of every 4 people who know me,I manage to rub 3 of them the wrong way..strange how I seem to have a knack for it.!!Strange how someone so close to me last year, can only claim to be on talking terms now..strange how many equations keep changing in my life..every single day...
Lol.. wish I could be an agreeable person for everyone around me for once.. muskil lagta hai par..Kudos to the poor souls still bearing with me :P.. Hmm.. feeling all sleepy now..I guess I'll jst have a milano and conk off..nothing like choco chip cookies to get ya highhhhhh..more later...no promish..!!
A tired,
Nikho ;)

Friends....and friendships day.!!

Well... I cant say today was particularly one of my best days...

1. School was a mini soap opera, with all the emotional turmoil in all of the student's lives :P.. getting found out by your mum about your various..escapades from ur diary(now....why does that sound familiar?!!?)...the class politics..etc..etc..etc..
2. Your plans getting rained on... even though they finally did work out :D :D
3. Spb class being a complete rip off.. with me being the favorite subject off humiliation for my beloved instructers..
4. No light, hormonal imbalance ( :P ), loads of hunger, general feeling of being wronged..blah blah blah

However, the strange thing is that today there seemed to be a perfect balance of both..!!Going to vacs with Kavya and Aashay..going high on chocolate,doing wacko stuff.. going to the club, and me trying to hide in our hideous uniform :P.. and being spotted by Anoushka,who failed pathetically at any attempts to control her laughter.Singing on top of my voice while Kavya sits next to me,completely non plussed and reading her book with commendable vigor.
"You'll always be my best friend,you have to be..you know too much!!!!"
-AnOnYmOuS
I guess thats what friends are for...Yepp.. an ode to Kavya.. for ALWAYS being there for me.
For keeping up with my mood swings, for picking up at 11 30 in the night even if she is sleeping when i call her, for not getting angry when I neglect to return her calls (happens a lot :P).. coz I guess she knws that regardless,she is an intrinsic part of my life..PERIOD,for crying with me when I cried,for giving in to my hair brained schemes,for doing my work whenever..(uhmm ohk ALWAYS :-s) I am too lazy to ,for drinking up my milk when she stays over :D , for risking her parents wrath soo many times for me,for teaching me the expertise of lying :P , for providing me reassurance about something as silly as an inter house debate to the boards,for listening to me without a word while I bawled on the phone for half an hour, for being the most non judgemetal person EVER...basically.. I am indebted to Kavya..for just being HER...
Yeah...we all know how highly unimportant and un-meaningful (please let it be a word :P) valentines day, friendships day and the likes are.. but its just that all the anticipated hype in the air, the special-ness (while I am at it, let that be a word too!!!) attatched to these days makes u feel like doing something special too..making the most of it...yep I know, Each day can be a day to make my friend feel special and that I shouldnt need the pretence of one day to do it..blah bah..but what the heck!?!?I dont care if its an excuse for the Archie's and Hallmarks of the world to make money.. it puts me in a mood to appreciate my friends(a full paged testimony on all of em.. none of them any less important, jst that I am dying to get to my ice cream rite now :D_=) O.o and I am so looking forward to the F.R.I.E.N.D.S and wonderyears special theyre going to be doing in honour of the day.. :P :P..yay...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Hmm guess I am getting high now..wheeeres the ish cream!!! Before signing off though....special thanks to Kavya and Aashay for putting up with my intolerable (yes I realise now) mood swings..u guys are the beshtest :D,loadz of evil glared to wacko potato and his SUCKY,SUCKY,SUCKY network.. and ..and..and..ish cream for myself..! yay...!!!
A high and wacked out
Nikho =)

The Power of Procastination :P

Whew.. today sure has been draining out...I am EXHAUSTED...in all repsects..!!
Of course that does not explain my lack of posts, we have good old laziness for that one :P
Well..the one thing to look forward to these days, is the incessant rain :D just awesomonical it is :D :D ..In fact, on tuesday.. I even say this rainbow, when I went off to the gym..after a half day at school PREFECTLY spent :D :D I could see this crystal clear rainbow.. now as far as rainbows go, I always thought they were lame and much too hyped..but boy, if the rains get me high.. i was sloshed on the rainbow :D ..It just seemed to honour my happiness or something (ya rite..bt i can dream na?)And i just finished this aweshum book by Daphne De Maurier,the Scapegoat.the ending as always in her books, is a bit vague..but all the same ..the book had phenomenal reading value..I stretched for AGES :D :D
O.o which reminds me, I havent been studying at all..!! O.o.. I better get to my books.. panic attack!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
More later..!!!!
A very worried,
nikho :D
P.S:(1): People who are sending their heartfelt apologies to me, might consider making more subtle references to me in their profile names :P
(2) why would anyone tell me they want to talk to me, and then proceed to keep their phone busy for the next 45 mins?
(3) I am pissed, tired,bored,procastinating when I ought to be studying,ignored,and did I say pissed?