For you... a thousand times over.

Wow.. this must be the UMPEENTH time I've started typing in the dashboard in attempt to get back to my forever neglected blog...! Seriously, I should just be quarantined.. no downright diagnosed with an extreme case of the forever feared "writers block"!!!









So, while I've been gone.. a lot has happened in my small little world.. the biggest happening of which would be getting my dog(FINALLY!!!!!!!).. SMOKEY!!!!!!!! However eloquently I put it in words, to even try and do justice to the happiness he gives me would be doing injustice to it!And what can I say?!!?

1. He's Cute
2. He's adorable :D
3. He's MINE!!!!!!!!!!! <3

A lot has been happening around the world as well .. and I'm not too sure if I'm too happy with the way things are going ;) .. I mean firstly..

INFLATION!!!! OH MY GOD..!!! I never thought ( or rather wished..!) that i would see a day when it would take me freaking 60 Rs from lifestyle till my house..! Now even biscuit rates seem to be going up ( Hmph..I bet milano is more expensive too.. *sniff sniff*)uhm actually not that it matters to me but I just felt like mentioning it so what the hell :D,and the worst part being my allowance just does not seem to be witnessing the same inflation!!

Oh well.. I am(what "I" , I bet the whole of India is ;) ) just hoping that this is a "passing trend" , heck it better be!

On another note.. everyone around me just seems to be leaving.. Sushma for the US, Raichu for her college in chennai, Varun for bombay,banglore..wherever(god,someone put his picture next to indecisive in the dictionary man!),Half my seniors in school for places I can't be bothered to keep track of. Entrances,Admissions,Applications.. these seem to be the only words I seem to have been hearing for a long, long time..!Its been a flurry of activities , a constant whirlwind of emotions for all of them. There's been disappointment,rejection, confusion,anger,repentance,nervousness..all of it..But beneath all this, I've also seen hope,seen the anticipation in these eyes as they envisage a new place, new people, a new found freedom and in some cases (you know.. apart from those who might not be actually going away for their colleges..?!) a completely new life.The eagerness to break into this new mould,the excitement.. its nearly contagious!At the risk of sounding cliched, they look just like those zealous birds .. raring to fly out of their nests, and explore the world for all its worth ;) (these are birdies that I sure will miss :) )I might be a bit too dramatic,but even being a part of it all is rather exciting.!! In a way, I feel like I'm seeing reflections of what I am going to be witnessing next year.Sure most of the time it scares me a little, terrifies me even,yet at some crazy level I can't help but look forward to it :)

Recently though, I have pretty much been the lazy bum that I am ;) .. one good thing that came out of all this would be the decent amount of reading that I managed to pack in :).. speaking of which

My entry would be incomplete without mentioning a book that has had a most profound effect on me is reading the "Kite runner".Too say that the book is beautiful would be an understatement of the year. The journey of two boys from contrasting socio-economic backgrounds sticking by each other through their childhood triumphs and petty trials and tribulations touches the heart in all the right chords.The author captures Aamir's failures, his doubts and his ultimate collapse of character during his childhood in a manner that is superb beyond words.His lack of self confidence, and confusion at his fathers apparent but strange lack of affection all hit home. In comparison, Hassan's (the sidekick and hazra servant of aamir) unwavering loyalty, his devotion, patience and almost unrealistic love towards Aamir render you speechless and horrified at the his tragic outcome at the same time. It was one of the few books that made me cry. One of the few books that made me thankful for having lived in a country, born to parents and an environment that has allowed me to thrive as an individual.Yet it also made me painfully aware of the fact, that while I and a million other girls all over the world blossomed, a million other women scattered over places like Afghanistan and parts of even India are like those flowers that have been cut off just as they were budding.What would be it like, to live each and everyday with their realisation that your voice was born to be silenced, that you mighit never be given the "privilege" of education even if you yearn for it while your male counterparts( and possibly even females ones like me..!!) are floundering it away, to make the oppression, the almost daily humiliation and constant scrutiny a habit and way of your life.I can't help but shudder at the prospect of such a life, and yet, it is a stark reality, a reality these women are possibly living without so much so as a word of complain.As I read in the book"Every woman needed a husband. Even if he did silence the song in her."How true. Even behind the facade of modernisation, a woman is deemed incomplete without a husband even today in our "progressive" society.A line so sad, yet so subtly descriptive of women all over.

Through this book, I was also introduced to the horrors of a war, of being colonised by another country or an extremist political institution.The extent to which human values can be degraded, eroded and made a mockery of,and finally the triumph of the human spirit that ( one can only hope, a majority of the time) rises out of it.Hope, determination, compassion and courage, one of those many values that brings us out of trying times, however dark they may be.

Perhaps, I am reading a bit too much into the book(Uh wait books are MEANT to be read, but hey you got the point right!?!?),maybe I'm not. But one thing is for sure, for a little while at least, the world seems a bit brighter, my family,friends and freedom and lack of any overtly horrific tragedy till now(touch wood and thank god :) ) a boon.



And every time I think of a close friend, my parents, smokey :P or just simply unconditional,unadulterated love and loyalty towards a person, these words will linger in my mind forever,


" For you,a thousand times over"

Trying hard to get back..

*Nikho*

A bit of this , that and my thoughts..!

Story of my life..just when I have my exams.. I ALSO have :

1. Dance classes that get over 5 days before my exam.. leaving me to wallow in self pity and panic... yeah did i mention panic?( ok.. so i brought it upon myself.. but there could be no earthly way I was missing this class..I mean hello.. this is Aneesha we are talking about.. it was almost like a conspiracy to keep me from doing well.. honest!)
2. A new.. absolutely unread stack of Gerrard Durells in the childrens library at the club.. geez now I cant give up on that.. CAN I?
3. A new found OBSESSION ( no trust me.. there is no other word for it) for FRIENDS.. that compels my helpless body to drag itself to the television at 11 : 30 and 12 : 30 in the night..and gee.. doesnt take any rocket scientist to figure out what I , or any sane ( wait.. did I just say SANE??!?) person would be doing during that half hour interval..oh and this is AFTER I watch FRIENDS at 7:30 while I am trying my best not to pass out in the gym too :P
4. An irresistable urge to talk on the phone for long hours.. and worry about how much portion I have left..while I am doing absolutely NOTHING about it.. =)
5. daydream.. sigh.. I <3>

Well.. surprise,surprise.. the exams are over(read.. so is my life.. after the results though).. and I have ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to do.Its like I've been enveloped in this warm, fuzzy blanket of lethargy that I just cant seem to get off me!!

Which.. uhmm.. might I just add.. really SUCKS.

But I guess this is just one of the mysteries of life that I am just not destined to understand..

On the brighter side though.. IT RAINED>>!!!

And not just rained, it poured..the cats and dogs, the really splashy noise making, the kinds you can nearly see rains :D
No sane person would sit home when they could be out in such smashing weather.. right..right?!?!?!!?!?

So out we were.. kavya and me.. walking around.. with an umbrella halfheartedly dragged along.. of course, I am not going to bother to bore you with the details of the subsequent addition of nadia to our entrouge and the ensuing mud fight that followed... coz uhmm thats that :D (smooth huh)

It is strange though.... how much one just blabbers when you're on a sleepover... I mean from the most trivial anecdotes to the deepest of the secrets they all just seem to come tumbling out over these tell all nights..want to get some dirty dough on a person...? just call em over for a sleepover!

Oh well.. I digress from my point.. its just that kavya and me had this interesting conversatio( read, I shot the questions..and on account of the whole sleepover magic thingy i just apprised you about.. she readily answered..*evil laughh*) at three in the night.. when our subject of intersest turned out to be the world.. and what we found unfair in it..

well.. if you ask me... I can draw up a fair list :D (on the whole unfair aspect I mean..hehe.. just call me the born whiner) but the point she came up with was staggeringly true.. and that was about how despite whatever we might claim, beauty ( and of the skin deep variety) matters.

I am no saint when it comes to these matters myself.. I'm finicky (WAY TOO finicky as Bhavna and Kavya would readily vouch for :P) about what I wear when I'm out,I'm constantly running to gym(running to gym... LOL.. running.. TO the GYM.. get it ;) ) to shed weight despite all my good intentions because I DO want to look like a million dollars(farfetched,but what the heck), I take hours to get ready and I change in and out of my entire wardrobe in the span of that time, I am constanly lamenting about the "apparent" lack of clothes in my wardrobe, my first appraisal of a person is on the basis of their looks.. you get the point.

I know its shallow.. and I'm constantly reminded of it.. but my mindset.. however much I might try for it to.. doesnt seem to change..and I can safely say, it isnt just me but more than half the world that suffers from this narrow mindedness..but when(that is IF there is even a when) are we going to get rid of it..? Sadly.. I suspect that the time isnt anywhere close.. all of us just seem to be so besotted with the whole idea of beauty about and around us, that the whole concept of "inner beauty" reeks of fakeness to me..and that realisation,trust me is a sad state to be in..

Yeah.. sure beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder.. pardon me though.. the beholder(s!) sure seem to be a highly critical lot these days..

But one experience, over this whole week that I really,truly enjoyed would be going to freedom foundation(an institution for AIDS affected kids in bolarum..and DARE you stop reading now :P) after the exams ended.. not to forget, dragging bhav,kavya and varun along with me too..they say once you go to places like these, you really do realise how lucky you are..I never really believed that ( You have to admit.. it does seem kind of uhmm IMPOSSIBLE?).. that is TILL I went to that place.

There are AIDS affected kids.. many of them possible abandoned by their families, shunned by a majority of the society(my mum herself told me that I shouldnt be going so "indiscriminately"..dont ask me.. I cant for the love of god figure out what she meant and frankly.. i dont want to),and still so perfectly happy, so perfectly lovable that it brought all of us to shame .. literally.

The surprising part is.. bonding with the kids is the least complex part or of the entire process.. handling your own feelings and conscience after such a visit.. now thats a toughie.

Hugging them, letting them hold your hand without the slightest flinch, playing with them.. (thats no mean feat though... try playing out-out with these kids.. fiesty is NOT the word :P),talking to them... being yourself.. thats what they seem to want.. and just by letting go of my fears and shedding those unwanted inhibitions.. I got so much more than I had bargained for.. gratefullness, compassion and most importantly...happiness like one I had never experienced before.It is a wonderfully symbiotic relationsip... we flatter ourselves.. thinking that those children need our support.. but the truth be told.. we need those children, their innocence, their optimism, their outlook towards life, their smiles and excitement at your company... a LOT MORE.

Maybe I am sounding preachy,what the heck.. I KNOW i am.. but thats how it is.. an experience.. such that words seem to fail me when I try to describe it...

Oh well.. life is complex,tough and difficult.. but I've learnt to love it for all it is..you have the bad days, the terrrible ones.. but you also have the RAINY days :D , the happy ones.. the ones you share with people you truly love.. the ones you spend in absolute contentment with yourself.. the days on which you form some great friendships..rekindle some old ones.. the ones on which you play hobscotch and become kids again, the ones on which you watch 50 first dates and awww to yourself all day long,the ones on which you have a huge avalanche sundae with extra chocolate guilt free,the ones on which you go through a kazillion albums and realise how cute you WERE as a kid (SIGH),the days on which Ross and Rachael kiss and makeup( for the millionth time ;)) on FRIENDS,the ones on which you cuddle inside your blanket and read all the seven harry potters back to back with your ipod blaring,the ones on which you get all hyper about the rain and have a mud fight in the park :D .. and those days..those days are the ones life is all about :)

Trying to grin and bear it ;)

*Nikho*

Childhoods revisted :)

(HECK I know I am giving infinite publicity to the movie.. WHO CARES :P)So I FINALLY saw it today...after some 3 consecutive futile attempts at seeing Taare Zameen Par.. we finally did manage to see it courtsey Riddhima today.. and WOW.. all I can say is that it was completely worth the wait!Needless to say.. most of us girls were in tears :P :P.. god.. I am SO pathetic, I cry at the parts where like uhmm absolutely NO ONE sheds a tear...!?!? I mean uhm hello.. I was crying in Ta Ra Rum Pum, just coz Saif Ali Khan was driving his cocker spaniel out of his house and I started missing Mocha.. yes... the story did not touch me one wee bit.. but the dog just had to do it..!!And today.. I was ok for most of the 1st half... and then that song starts.. that one about mothers... and WOAH....my faucet of tears just REFUSES to stop, it was like this whole thing about Oh-my-god-i-so-love-my-mom-but-dont-appreciate-her-enough instances just flashing before me eyes..I might tend to dramatise things a BIT :P ;).. but seriously, there are somethings that just do make you introspect so much.. some pictures of my childhood, my first day of kindergarten with my standing right next to me, mum and dad beaming proudly when i won some award uhmmm In class I(hah..THOSE were the days :P )..and the lyrics of that song was just amazing.. if you ask me(ok,I know noone is...but what the heck..MY BLOG remember ;))songs like these are like masterpieces.. so few, but yet so wonderful.. like that song "Lukachippi" from RDB.. The lyrics just sears right through the heart.. anyways.. gettting back to Taare..=)...That kid was just AMAZING.. seriously.. I could totally identify with that whole lower lip trembling and the bawling beginning part..(uhmm wait.. most whiny kids would :P)...the range of emotions in the movie was just fantastic.. just about everytime the kids or Aamirs eyes starting shining with tears, rest assured your eyes are going to be welling with some of em too :P ..from the kids stubborness, retaliations,depression and finally his triumphs.. we all could relate to it so strangely well..the situations, the parental pressure and expectations,the impatient teachers,the inevitable evil bullying(woah... I remember facing a LOT of THAT when I was small.. some kids I remember, could give hard core criminals and blackmailers a run for their money...! I can never forget the trauma of having to do the homework of a kid EVERYSINGLE day,just coz that Idiot was the tiffin monitor.. and I was uhmmm lets just say. a PICKY EATER :P)... Most intresting it was to see Varun.. though he might unconvincingly claimed he wasnt crying..it was just too touching when he said he was going to make sure his dad saw the movie.. since he had always been skeptical about the whole dyslexia thing with him.. but,it wasnt just the story of a dyslexic child, it was the story of a childhood most of could relate to having faced at some point or the other..sure, their were those slight gliches in the movies.. some of those too good to be true parts.. however the way the movie dealt with dyslexia was just amazing.. but what I found most touching was the way they spoke about the parents,teachers who are constantly, ceaselessly driving their children to excel in their studies, irrespective of the child's indidvidual talents, capabilities or even limitations.Let alone the difficulties for a dyslexic child, the world has become so fiercely competitive...not just the parents, we oursleves too.. admittedly... one of the main things that drives us to do better IS competition.. but to what extent?Study, excel in academics and THEN WHAT?What about the talents I might have? The hobbies I want to pursue..?Sure, I'm a little frazzle brained now, so I do know that there are a LOT of loopholes in what I am saying. But more importantly, what I am trying to point out is that there must be such a vast, huge expanse of talent there that all of us are wasting.. just because when we prioritise, it is understandably studies that take the forefront in comparison to anything and everything else..(uh apart from good ol fun that is ;) ) ...but even around me..I see so many people... Bhavna with her amazing artistic skills, Kavya with her writing, Karishma with her singing.. so many of us, who refuse to make the most of the gifts Gods bestows on us.. because of maybe low self esteem, that casual almost lazy attitude we tend to adopt towards our talents and mostly because of those endless strereotypes that insist notwithstanding any talent we might, how much ever evident and extraordinary, we do our best , our very best in academics..even if it means eventually taking a road we do not enjoy travelling on.. doing something we dont really have our heart in..I might seem naive, almost silly.. but yet, I am still nagged by this thought.. how much could it reallly hurt... to try your hand.. and I dont mean joining some summer classes just coz your parents forced you to.. but really seriously take up something you truly ENJOY doing and taking up the courage to really give it your all...hmmm just a passing thought.. that I cant seem to put adequately enough in words..

Oh well.. I simply CANNOT make this entry without mentioning Red's absolutely DELICIOUS cake...Oh my god.. the minute I put it into my mouth, I was sure I had died and gone to chocolate heaven or something.. Woah..I mean hello.. rich,sinful chocolate mousse with LOTS of raisins and a base of chocolate cake.. which sane person WOULDNT be transported to the heights of ecstacy :P :P

2 days to New Years, and I STILL am not sure about what I am doing for new years.. god... I am so pathetic :P have I mentioned that before?

Anyways, better end it right here,right now (woaahh..CORNYYYYYYY!) before my dad kills me for his much favoured for online bridge..(search me :P)

Just being me..

*Nikho* =)

All of that... and more :P

Yeppp.. and so I'm back... back to bore you with .... oh wait... why am I even bothering here..?!? Been there, done that... now off with it :P
O.O my last entry was.. umm kinda .. uh old..!?!!? And a lot has transpired since then... heck I became 16...! :D :D ..And wad it the best sweet 16 a girl could ask for or what..!?!!?!?I brought my birthday in with the people I really love, oh and who went to GREAT extents to make this day special :D :D, with loooots of cake(maybe calories too :P who cares,a birthday comes just once a year;)),lots of HUGZ,with surprise.. comeon.. i would have been really disappointed if there were none on my 16th!,and ooodles of yappy, sappy sappy moments ... it doesnt hurt that I got gifted an ipod either ;) and a ring too, and FRIENDS season finale episodes....hah.. this is where I start doing a mini jig around the computer prompting my poor mum to think her daughter has FINALLY lost it :P

Anyways... am pretty much content with my life right now.. who wouldnt be, holidays, fever so you can be given the royal treatment and loadsss of good books to read(ahem, theres that tiny cloud of the unit tests, but that can be "dealt"*sinister laugh* with later :P) o.O and I read ..............*drumroll*"THE GODFATHER"... OHMG... That Book is, I quote "the book of all time".. It almost made me wish I was born in a mafia family.. (hah.. and how would THAT be) .. the description, that gang war... the complexity of the characters.. and those ENDLESS layers the book runs through.. I literally devoured it. Its so rare that you find a book like this one.. the kind I wouldnt mind updating my orkut profile for, just so that I could add in my list of favourite books :P

Lifes pretty much monotonous otherwise, its strange... but its like I have to stop and think a kazillion times while writing all this.. maybe I've just lost the flair ... sigh... that sure does wonders for my self esteem.

The new years is just 3 days away, and I have not the faintest idea about what I want to do. Oh well, staying at home and watching those programs and christmasy/new years kinds movie on the television doesnt seem such a bad bet either... o.O cant believe I just said that, maybe the fever just got to my head or something :P
And now it finally happened.. yesterday I'm on the phone when Aashay suddenly went like "oh ya,that Bezanir Bhutto got assasinated...." and I shrieked "WHAAAAAAAA?!!?" to top it off,the stupid hathway connection had to start acting up then. I don't know why, but it really was a shock.. I know she was exiled from her country on corruption charges and all of that...maybe she wasn't such a great person either... but its still so strange, I dont think I can really explain why.. but the assasination in particular left a nasty taste in the mouth.

Somethings just do... like everytime I read about some new fatwa that they've issued against Sania Mirza... woah that irritates me..! ok, makes my blood boil more like it!
Here we are, in the 21st cenutury.... seemingly advanced, and there re still those sections in the society that are willing to threaten someone who is admittedly bring fame and glory (comeon, frankly... not that I have any personal liking for her,she has had her sure share of hits.. apart from the humongous publicity generated around tennis thanks to her) for what...!?!? Oh right,that would be wearing a tennis skirt that is too short... there are still those sadits from VHP who went around on CHRISTMAS EVE, destryoing churches in Orrissa and killing people. All of this just makes me despise the whole concept of religions sometimes. The tolerance level in all of us for other human beings, their faith, religion, beliefs or even thoughts is so staggeringly low. Its just so sad, that someone can actually stall the success of an individual because they refuse to let go of their antiquated notions wherein the lady shouldnt be ought there in the first place.Equally sad is the fact that those sadists, those extremists to the core who claim to be "protecting the sanctity of religion" are willing to comprimise on the very sanctity of humanity. I mean how sad and sick minded could be those people, who are willing to spread such ill will on a day like Christmas.. when (at least thats what I.. in my idealistic self feel) even the coldest of hearts seem to thaw with those merry carols,decoarated churches, and that general air of festivity all around. My own grandmother proudly tells me that she gave her sons the freedom to marry anyone, except a Muslim... is that what we've been reduced to.. labelling people,their behaviour,character,efficiency on the basis of the god they pray to? The faith they believe in?At times like these, the world seems a scary place to live in... but you go with the flow all the same. The most I can do is nonsensically rant about it, and then go on living my life, while such people live theirs..maybe its not as abnormal as I believe it to be,but to me the most freaky thing is when someone tells me.. well ya.. Narendra modi dint reeaally do anything wrong with those mass killings in Gujarat.. "they" deserved it...

Oh well.. I can go on about this, but I'd rather stop.. its a pretty distressing thing to think or write about..!
A little confused and scatterbrained,

*Nikho* =)

P.S : Thanks so much rituraj for those topics, I wud have totally used them had I not been abjectly mortified t the fact that I couldnt think of anything to write and hence have been shamelessly ignoring my blog :D .. I'm patenting those now though :D

Tired.. and how!!?!!?

STATUTARY NOTE: In case you're looking for something good to read.. do yourself and me a favour.. pass this entry.. I dont even know why I posted it in the first place!

God... After that sudden spurt of writing that took me over. I am suddenly at a loss on what to write..!

I told you Rituraj thats going to happen... didn't I ?!?!?! Huh, Huh?!!??! Well.. Can I just say I TOLD YOU SO :P :P
Lifes hectic these days.....No I mean really,really hectic..uhmm ok barring my days at school :P a majority of which is spent sleeping on my desk... hehe

Most of my days though.. seem to be spent in making decisions.. .. small ones, big ones, tough ones.. sigh and it really doesnt seem to end..

But I miss being free.. and having time to waste.. go out.. do stuff... and that sort of thing..Nahh.. not that I dont like my classes.. anyones whose spoken to me for even 5 mins would know that :P

But its just that I miss having my friends around me.. being able to go for outings...to spend time with them...

A majority of my times these days seems to be spent either worrying about the impending edding,incidentally for which I havent bought a single thing... My MOMS shopping more than me...hello!!!!! Or thinking about class, and how I dont want to miss it..

strange isnt it.. when I had nothing to do ... i REALLY had nothing to do.. and now that one thing starts.. KABOOM its an explosion of sorts!!!
If I want to go for my brothers wedding(uhmmm..that would be an obvious..YES?!!?!?) I miss the club day(yeah.. i know I'm petty , so sue me:P),the 10 k run... and and and TWO CLASSES!!!!! shrieeek!!
But its just not that... I just feel so alienated.. from everyone I love and care about... its weird not having someone or the other calling me up every 5 minutes and telling me about some new triumph..however small..some trouble.. or even just how their day went....anything..!! Heck..forget about other people sharing their sorrows with me(for want of a better word.. I am kinda delirous right now :P ) .. I dont have anyone to share my day with anymore..!
This is a sort of first for me.. just being so alone, unwanted.. argh you get the point..Yea I know I probably sound like a self obsessed, narcisstic and whiny freak... but then, thats what its my blog for, aint it :P :P :P
Ouch.. I sound like a... umm.. meanie.. (I am kinda trying not swear here... just in case it escapes your notice.. :-/)

Another wedding, on the 2nd... and of my closest brothers.. and I'm not attending it coz I have my winter funk... Good god.. I sound like a selfish wacked out freak even to myself....would dying with guilt be an exaggeration.. uhmm I guess so.. but trust me... I am CLOSE to it.. ohh and when I try to mention this to my dad .. (ya.. ummm now I'm resorting to making my parents my agony aunts AND my punching bags)... he voices his main concern.. that would be.. sudden sprouting of those million pimples yet again on my face, and how I am going to look all ugly with them..my pimples...I kid you not.. and thats so toally in my hands..NOT.As if I already dont know how bad my face has been looking with them.. my so called friends...never spare any opportunity to inform me about that, so dad..uhmm just get in the queue won't you..

There I go again..

Maybe Lifes good.. maybe I Just cant see it.. but it just feels like my mind is determined to be depressed right now..and trust me.. that is NOT a good state to be in..

tata for now.. please don't kill me after and IF (holy lord..NO!) you read this post.. and don't worry I aint sucidal :P

Nikho...

The fast (that is SO me...NOT) and the FURIOUS!

God.. I'm such such a hypocrite.. I know I never,ever return calls, I don't go for sleepovers even my friend practically begs me coz I dont feel like it.. but whew am I furious, now that I've been stood up..!!O.o I'm in rage, boy o boy I'm boiling!



I just hate it when people take me for granted.. yeah, change plans at the drop of a hat, and I am supposed to be totally fine with it. O.o



Maybe its finally time to execute my wild fantasy of going all alone to a mall and freaking out there... maybee I'll even book a ticket and watch a movie all by myslef there..maybe..!



Oh and then I get the line "good keep fighting only, when do we not fight" Oooooohh..AUDACITY! Its 1 pm on childrens day and I am sitting at home ranting and raving like a mad woman on my blog! Go Figure!



I should have seen this coming though.. it seems to me when I am particularly happy someday, it is inevitabely destined that I my mood should be royally,fantastically screwed up the next.



Woah.. I can practically feel the heat on my cheeks.



Murder anyone?



Strange.. how we just tend to take people so much for granted..! The last few days, I've been doing a lot of catching up with my pals in the middle of the night (at the expense of my poor mum's fury and dad's mobile bill :P) and I suddenly realised how much I was missing out on their lives and mine!



How does it inevitabely happen... that when you are so close to one friend, one person, you just sidetrack the rest..!!? ( ok, ok.. happens just with me...baah!)



I wish I wasn't so bad at maintaining friendships though... coz I really have a bunch of truly amazing people to thank for.. particularly when they calm me down in moods like this... if only with their non commital hmm's (LOL!)


(I just felt like putting that.. no significance whatsoever :P Family Circus RULES!)

Kavya: Ok.. I've already spared a WHOLE blog entry for you havn't I?!?! Don't think I don't remember toopid girl.. coz I do...! *Evil Laugh* :D... But ur the beshtesht..the beshhteessht ever even though you havent been calling, and even if I think I dont get my due attention from you :P :P :P ( i sound like a jealous boyfriend!) I still love you :D



Aashay: Even though I'm mad at you, oh yeah... really really mad,super duper mad.. you can be a decent guy when you want to :P and a good listener, and lots of fun, and silly, and stupid oopz we were talking about your good qualities right.. anger and writing something about you so do not board well togther.. oh well..you are good, like really really good at making me shut up when I'm having a panic attack and uber sweet, and you let me sneeze like a crazy lady on your towel,and ok i 'll stop now :P... hmm yeah.. your not so bad yourself.. I might even heart you too :P <3



Amruta: Wacked out freak you might be, but a nice one :D ... Your stupid jokes I like, your dumb sarcastic remarks I like,Your never ending patience for my tantrums I like, your affinity for chocolate and french fries I like,your always being there for me whatever I like,our bus conversations everyday I like, Your Vacs cravings I like, you I like too!!!!! Gonna miss you when you run off to some dumb college :( :(



Rachina: Raaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiichuu!! Chi.. the mere mention of you name makes me hyper..! From the midnight conversations.. about stuff like 2 year olds views on LOOS ( you know you're uber gross..DONT YOU) to singing on the phone together.. you are cuteness personfied.. you are like the perfect thing,perfect daughter, perfect student, and a perfect friend.One of the reaally, really good influences on my life.. Your the least judgemental person, but everything seems so objective and clear from your perspective all the time..!Someday I am going to record you singing a song, and then you'll realise how cute you sound..! If I were a guy I would have sure shot fallen for you :P Just keep that wit going.. gonna miss you too u



freak :( :( :(



Bhavna: Oye Pataka... thanks for making life in the commerce section so much fun!You are the one person who simbly cracks me up in splits with the most normal stuff.Your matter of fact way of saying the most atrocious things, your soaring popularity,the way I know you


re always going to forgive me even when I don't call you after I promised to,they way you embrace life and whatever comes in the package..you probably don't know it..but you taught me a lot..about really enjoying life,about loyalty,friendship and about loving yourself the way you are.. and I thought I WAS outgoing..!!!SWEET!!!!!!!! :P :P :P



Varun: O.o How could I forget you re :P mad fellow only. Your annoying habbit of wishing anything (ANYTHING... remember 5th nov dont u shamelss fellow) at 11:59 in the night, to being one of the most patient listeners when I was sobbing on the phone (Galeez..how COULD I do that!!), to being subject to the most wacky of my plans.. You're one of my closest friends, we might have our fights but I know that I can always, always count on you.. and I hope you know the same..Thanks for being there.. through the toughest to happiest times.. you just rock..!



Ok.... now my mum's shouting.. I better get going before something unforseen happens, uhmm like me getting killed for example..!?!!?



Hehe... testimony to my friends will be continued.. :P So manny more people who mean so much more to me,and it is so shameless not to be mention them here..!! hehe.. another day is all It'll take though :D :D :D





Luffffff and lots of it!!
Nikho =)

Bored, Bummed and Busted!

Ok.. so I did very sadly, hit upon the realisation,that I am no more the adept nocturnal creature I once was.* sob sob* One day of staying awake till 4 30 for my parents, and I feel like I've had a hangover(HAHA...I WISH)...

One of those times when you feel like everything, from the (now,owing to due to repeateed hearings that I've noticed tend to destroy the value of most songs I like :P)irritating song by Shreya Ghosal from Jab We Met that my mom for some reason has insisted on playing 3 times as of now,the computer monitor that I have been staring at glazy eyed for the ummm.. past..ok wait, you are better of not knowing,and my very own sleepy headed existence seem pretty much surreal.

Today is one of those days, when I just feeel like spending time with myself..o.O, sitting around doing things I do everyday only with a more martyrlike(read bored) and depressed air :P

I feel like going out to a mall today, and spending some kazillion hours there today, doing window shopping for all the time I want.. all alone :P(and no, thats something I do NOT do on a regular basis...hah..I wish), switch my phone off and have something really chocolate.. like really, really chocolate... like the death by chocolate kinds..and Dahi chaat.. with lots of crunchy papdi and meethi chutney.. ...mmmmmmm!

Lol.. its like that feeling of unavoidable doom that you get ... oh wait, might that JUST be the impending results that will (predictebly) create hell and havoc..But nah, I cant really blame it on my results,or the way my mum has taken to lecturing me about what exactly I am doing wrong (which umm turns out to be quite a lot judging by the frequency of aforementioned pearls of wisdom) every 2 mins,just good ol Sundays that usually have this effect on you..

Was just going through my now LIMITED documents(thanks to my Hard Drive crashing, AGAIN!) and this was something, I wrote down while another one of those business studies classes where I am scrambling for any possible means of keeping myself from plonking asleep right away... incidentally.. i find scribbling nonsensical phrases on my dupatta quite therupatic in this respect :P

Oh ya...getting back to this thing I found, hehe... here it is :P

Have you ever noticed when its one of those days….!?!?

Have you noticed how, on these certain days when perhaps the sun rises from the wrong side or pink wolves have been howling in the night, that just EVERYTHING seems to go wrong? We just thought we could capture some of those truly memorable moments for u ;)

1. When that dress at Sindhi colony you were pining for is sold out as soon as you have the money to buy it?


2. When you teacher has to be in a bad mood and throw you out of class for not getting your notes or just when you forgot yours at home.


3. When the rain god decided to turn uncharacteristically generous just as you decided to don your favorite white tee.


4. When the RTC bus HAS to come 5 minutes early the day you are a bit slow on the uptake ;)


5. When the day you have that big party you want to dazzle at, you are bound to get the most horrendous looking zit just where it is the most noticeable


6. When you can trip on each of the many potholes that there are on the roads in the city, YOU WILL!


7. When the guy you have the hots for comes with a deep root red blush to tell you how much he “loaves” your best friend


8. When you and your best friend just have to make complete fools of yourselves in an up market restaurant just when the cute guy at the opposite table happens to glance in your direction


9. When the day you decide to take your cell phone to school is the day you WILL be busted without fail


10. When the day you chance a bunk at college is when the lecturer will cover the maximum portion, or rather worse the class will have the most free periods on ;)

Oh yea.. and when there is a wedding in my family on the 25th November, and one that I really badly want to attend(since,now thanks to aformentioned luck I cant attend the second one ..sigh):

• The club day has to be on the 24th of November, as opposed to the EIGHTEENTH last year


• A NATIONAL LEVEL debate has to come up in the precisely same week that I have to forgo


• SPB has to be super fun during this one week so that I totally, completely ,stupidely adamant about not giving it up


• The city 10K marathon has to be on the 25th.. as opposed to TWENTY EIGHTH last year

I tell you, whichever idiot said there's justice in the world, needs to come live with my... for like just 24hrs to know what I am talking bout..

A highly delusional,

Nikho =/